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doubts
i'm beginning to doubt whether or not i can move this summer. which makes me doubt if i can ever do it. i've applied for what seems like 100 jobs and have only heard back from one, which told me that the position had already been filled. if i continue working where i'm working at the pay that i'm getting paid, there's no way in hell i can save up enough money to afford to move out. i've already had to have my mom pay for things this month (chiropracter). i know that i could live without luxuries, like going to the coffee shop everytime i work at the mall. i honestly need to start making coffee in the back again, but it's so much better when i get a mocha than when i make coffee and put some creamer in it...
seriously though...i don't have the money to do this. not if i want to do things like take voice lessons and have a social life while i'm here. maybe i've just been too spoiled since i've been living here. i don't have to eat ramen and pb & j b/c i have enough to spend on real food...maybe that's what i should do though. maybe i should take the money from my next paycheck and put it in my savings and just eat things that i could afford in college...
i just don't know.
i'm beginning to doubt whether or not i can move this summer. which makes me doubt if i can ever do it. i've applied for what seems like 100 jobs and have only heard back from one, which told me that the position had already been filled. if i continue working where i'm working at the pay that i'm getting paid, there's no way in hell i can save up enough money to afford to move out. i've already had to have my mom pay for things this month (chiropracter). i know that i could live without luxuries, like going to the coffee shop everytime i work at the mall. i honestly need to start making coffee in the back again, but it's so much better when i get a mocha than when i make coffee and put some creamer in it...
seriously though...i don't have the money to do this. not if i want to do things like take voice lessons and have a social life while i'm here. maybe i've just been too spoiled since i've been living here. i don't have to eat ramen and pb & j b/c i have enough to spend on real food...maybe that's what i should do though. maybe i should take the money from my next paycheck and put it in my savings and just eat things that i could afford in college...
i just don't know.