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and it begins... again?
I was born in february in 1980. on a leap year. I don't know what day of the week it was. I don't know how the weather was outside. was it snowing? was it exceptionally warm for february? I don't know how long my mother was in the hospital with me, and I don't know how much I weighed. no one has ever spoke of my birth or the years that followed.
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where it begins.
How do you begin after two years ( Read more... ) -
Heartaches.
During my pregnancy, everyone told me how hard it was to have a baby. It'll be stressful, you'll be tired, and the crying. Just wait for the crying. And the waking up every hour at night. And sleep schedules, and bottles and diaper changes. Those were the hardships I was prepared for. Those were what I had anticipated being the toughest to deal ( Read more... ) -
awesome mom.
So I've pretty much decided that I'm an awesome mom. I suck at financial decisions, have a crap job that is getting me nowhere, and hate to clean my house, but I'm a damn good mom. Not only do I rock, but I seriously have the coolest kids ever. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know every parent says that, but my words hold nothing but truth. Really ( Read more... ) -
Six down...
It's hard to believe that this year marks six years since the fire. You would think after that many years, I still wouldn't be so paranoid, but I am. I cant help it. That was the hardest thing I have ever experienced. It was harder then going through my parents' divorce, harder then childbirth, and harder then loosing a loved one ( Read more... ) -
And We're Off...
January 19th. I'm counting down the days. I'm so ready to begin my Cosmetology career at McCann. For the longest time I've wanted to go back to school, but have been so scared to. I have finally realized that I am in desperate need of a change in my life. School is that change. I want to better the lifestyle that we are living right now. I want to ( Read more... ) -
so...
so lets try this whole journal thing again. i never seem to get very far. once upon a time i actually could keep up with this thing, either that or i actually had something of importance to say. either way, im giving my livejournal a go again... -
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"As a girl you see the world as a giant candy store filled with sweet candy and such. But one day you look around and you see a prison and you're on death row. You wanna run or scream or cry but something's locking you up. Are the other folks cows chewing cud until the hour comes when their heads roll? Or are they just keeping quiet like you, ( Read more... ) -
the long and winding road.
I can't sleep. The past couple of nites, I've watched the hours tick by. I sit, mind racing, almost terrified to fall asleep ( Read more... ) -
it's all just bricks in the wall.
Sometimes something has to happen in your life that makes you sit back and wonder just exactly how you got here. What events led up to my life being precisely the way it is at this exact moment? Could it be that I have a sick child? (Whom doctors say is basically fine.) Could it be the stresses of being a mother, a wife, a sister, a daughter, a ( Read more... )