Got to get to you, but I don't know how
Jesse,
This is one of those "holy crap, Lisa decides to show her vulnerability a bit" moments... Just wanted to say, first, I'm sure you did the right thing in quitting Leadership Team tonight, but the one thing I'm worried about, and have been worried about for a while now for the entire chapter, is that... well, I'm graduating this year, right, and I suck at communicating. One of the things about Leadership Team was that we all built up a friendship, so one of the things I'm worried about with you leaving is... not really losing you as a friend, per se, but not really succeeding at keeping you as one either. I mean, let's face it--neither of us is particularly good about communicating (well, I know I'm not, and it doesn't seem like you are either). Point of this is, can we make sure we still stay friends now that there's one less hang-out time a week?
--Lisa
(that was modified from an actual message I sent him)
I guess I'm just scared. Scared of losing close friends. I mean, he did the right thing, I'm sure, and I don't doubt he considered his decision carefully. But I've lost so many friendships due to a complete lack of communication--on my part in particular--heck, many of you guys are among said lost friends. I don't want to go on being like that. When I graduate, yeah, of course I'll naturally stop talking to some of the friends I've made here. That's life. I can get past that. But all of the people from InterVarsity in general and Leadership Team in particular...
I used to want to be a fortress. I had the personal bubble of Doom. Seriously. I couldn't let anyone be close at all. As Goldman says in The Princess Bride, "Buttercup's heart was a secret garden, and the walls were very high." That description used to be incredibly true. I've kinda gotten over that these past few years. A couple of people have penetrated the defenses.
The thought of losing any of them due to my complete ineptitude at communicating is unbearable...
This is one of those "holy crap, Lisa decides to show her vulnerability a bit" moments... Just wanted to say, first, I'm sure you did the right thing in quitting Leadership Team tonight, but the one thing I'm worried about, and have been worried about for a while now for the entire chapter, is that... well, I'm graduating this year, right, and I suck at communicating. One of the things about Leadership Team was that we all built up a friendship, so one of the things I'm worried about with you leaving is... not really losing you as a friend, per se, but not really succeeding at keeping you as one either. I mean, let's face it--neither of us is particularly good about communicating (well, I know I'm not, and it doesn't seem like you are either). Point of this is, can we make sure we still stay friends now that there's one less hang-out time a week?
--Lisa
(that was modified from an actual message I sent him)
I guess I'm just scared. Scared of losing close friends. I mean, he did the right thing, I'm sure, and I don't doubt he considered his decision carefully. But I've lost so many friendships due to a complete lack of communication--on my part in particular--heck, many of you guys are among said lost friends. I don't want to go on being like that. When I graduate, yeah, of course I'll naturally stop talking to some of the friends I've made here. That's life. I can get past that. But all of the people from InterVarsity in general and Leadership Team in particular...
I used to want to be a fortress. I had the personal bubble of Doom. Seriously. I couldn't let anyone be close at all. As Goldman says in The Princess Bride, "Buttercup's heart was a secret garden, and the walls were very high." That description used to be incredibly true. I've kinda gotten over that these past few years. A couple of people have penetrated the defenses.
The thought of losing any of them due to my complete ineptitude at communicating is unbearable...