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we, as a society, is always striving for more. whether it's with ourselves, school, friends, job, etc. we're never content with anything, even if we plead to convince ourselves of otherwise. we all strive for the best &will settle for nothing less.
the best example being love: during our teenage years, we find out who we are. we define ourselves as people &learn, grow &mature. ywe put ourselves out there, only to get hurt. we're scared of "being hurt." but, doesn't being sheltered shy you away from learning? growing? experience? these week, month, year long relationships can only end ugly. yet, we're never happy. we strive for more. being alone is what's most feared among us. i admit, i fear being alone. do you?
i want to learn. i want to experience. i want to go out, visit different towns and cities and have fun with my friends. i want to cry, hurt my cheeks ¬ be able to breathe from laughter. i want to become something great that people enjoy being around. i want to becoem the best person i can. nobody's perfect &i am slowly learning this.
i miss my old relationship. something stable &comfortable. i was learning something new every day and still keeping a smile on my face. i want somebody who understands me. who can engage in deep conversation and show me things i've never been shown before. i guess i'm still searching for that girl to fill that spot. somebody who can sit down and teach me things i never knew.
we're never happy. we always strive for more. this happiness we think we have will soon be deplinished, we'll be distrought for weeks upon weeks and then slowly but surely move on and want more. this sickening cycle. every day is full of hurt &there's no escaping it.
no matter how much i hurt, i try to be optomistic. there's never an end. my thoughts, my feelings, my ideals, will always be passed on through generations and throughout my family i wish to create one day. every day could be my last. i don't want to spend my life wasting it all away. i want to go out, see the sites and meet new people. i aspire to learn something new from everyone.
so far i've learned i'm a douchebag who is just waiting for that girl to fill that spot. &until then, i'm enjoying the people i am meeting down the road. i love you all &i hope you learned something from me, from my entry, from my friendship. something good, some thing bad. i want to learn, iw ant to grow. i want to experience &mature as a person. it's going to take time. i'm starting to find myself, what makes me happy, what makes me tick.
i love you all. no matter how many rough times we've been through.
someone sit down with me &teach me? someone go out to the sites with me? meet new people? anyone?
the best example being love: during our teenage years, we find out who we are. we define ourselves as people &learn, grow &mature. ywe put ourselves out there, only to get hurt. we're scared of "being hurt." but, doesn't being sheltered shy you away from learning? growing? experience? these week, month, year long relationships can only end ugly. yet, we're never happy. we strive for more. being alone is what's most feared among us. i admit, i fear being alone. do you?
i want to learn. i want to experience. i want to go out, visit different towns and cities and have fun with my friends. i want to cry, hurt my cheeks ¬ be able to breathe from laughter. i want to become something great that people enjoy being around. i want to becoem the best person i can. nobody's perfect &i am slowly learning this.
i miss my old relationship. something stable &comfortable. i was learning something new every day and still keeping a smile on my face. i want somebody who understands me. who can engage in deep conversation and show me things i've never been shown before. i guess i'm still searching for that girl to fill that spot. somebody who can sit down and teach me things i never knew.
we're never happy. we always strive for more. this happiness we think we have will soon be deplinished, we'll be distrought for weeks upon weeks and then slowly but surely move on and want more. this sickening cycle. every day is full of hurt &there's no escaping it.
no matter how much i hurt, i try to be optomistic. there's never an end. my thoughts, my feelings, my ideals, will always be passed on through generations and throughout my family i wish to create one day. every day could be my last. i don't want to spend my life wasting it all away. i want to go out, see the sites and meet new people. i aspire to learn something new from everyone.
so far i've learned i'm a douchebag who is just waiting for that girl to fill that spot. &until then, i'm enjoying the people i am meeting down the road. i love you all &i hope you learned something from me, from my entry, from my friendship. something good, some thing bad. i want to learn, iw ant to grow. i want to experience &mature as a person. it's going to take time. i'm starting to find myself, what makes me happy, what makes me tick.
i love you all. no matter how many rough times we've been through.
someone sit down with me &teach me? someone go out to the sites with me? meet new people? anyone?