Lastnight
So, I'm not in the best of damn moods. I have TRIPLE goddamn detention and my business studies teacher is doing my head in. I'm about to have a friggin spaz attack. I'm stressed... Someone gimme a knife so I can kill small furry animals....
And gaaaah, last night sucked. I went into town to see Jamie, and we cuddled lots. And he kissed me a couple of times. Nothing majorly heavy, just friendliness. But y'know. It reminded me a lot of when we were dating. We chatted loads and had a real laugh. We were dancing around to [Spunge] and stuff, and I was chasing him round and we were picking each other up, and well, It was fun. And I liked it.... We haven't had such a laugh for ages. It was like having a great friend back.
And then there's Craig... Ohmygod.... He was cute as ever and stuff, and we were flirting and stuff, but nothing happened, obviously, due to me and Mark. But it's weird. I haven't been in there for ages because I thought I might start feeling stuff for them again, but I figured that two months on, I'm mature enough to be over it. Apparently I'm not. I still have feelings for both of them. I don't know who more though. I really like Jamies cute, immature side, and the fact I can be honest with him, but I like Craigs Pervy side, but also the fact that he thinks about other stuff, and me and Craig have had some fairly interesting convos. The thing is, aswell as this, I'm totally in love with Mark, and don't wanna jeaopordise that. And it's really screwing with my head that I have feelings for so many people. I'm all confuselded. I'm going to see Jamie and Craig again tonight, dunno why, addiction maybe? But yeah, I thought I'd go see them, so I need to figure out what to say to them, or whether I should say anything at all. I don't want either of them thinking I want anything to happen between us, because I don't want to cheat on Mark, but at the same time, I still have feelings for Jamie and Craig. I still refuse to cheat on Mark though, and both Jamie and Craig know I'm with Mark, so maybe I don't really need to say anything unless they try something. Well, thats my theory anyway.
And gaaaah, last night sucked. I went into town to see Jamie, and we cuddled lots. And he kissed me a couple of times. Nothing majorly heavy, just friendliness. But y'know. It reminded me a lot of when we were dating. We chatted loads and had a real laugh. We were dancing around to [Spunge] and stuff, and I was chasing him round and we were picking each other up, and well, It was fun. And I liked it.... We haven't had such a laugh for ages. It was like having a great friend back.
And then there's Craig... Ohmygod.... He was cute as ever and stuff, and we were flirting and stuff, but nothing happened, obviously, due to me and Mark. But it's weird. I haven't been in there for ages because I thought I might start feeling stuff for them again, but I figured that two months on, I'm mature enough to be over it. Apparently I'm not. I still have feelings for both of them. I don't know who more though. I really like Jamies cute, immature side, and the fact I can be honest with him, but I like Craigs Pervy side, but also the fact that he thinks about other stuff, and me and Craig have had some fairly interesting convos. The thing is, aswell as this, I'm totally in love with Mark, and don't wanna jeaopordise that. And it's really screwing with my head that I have feelings for so many people. I'm all confuselded. I'm going to see Jamie and Craig again tonight, dunno why, addiction maybe? But yeah, I thought I'd go see them, so I need to figure out what to say to them, or whether I should say anything at all. I don't want either of them thinking I want anything to happen between us, because I don't want to cheat on Mark, but at the same time, I still have feelings for Jamie and Craig. I still refuse to cheat on Mark though, and both Jamie and Craig know I'm with Mark, so maybe I don't really need to say anything unless they try something. Well, thats my theory anyway.