"long goodnight...hang on every word..."

[first_of_may]

This hurts so much.

How can I be rejected? All I want to do is make it work.

How can this be over? Please tell me it's not so...

and just when i need it most....

DownNout 0: go to the solemite party on friday
miss emily betty: why?
DownNout 0: just do it
miss emily betty: you aren't playing a show with them, are you?
DownNout 0: nope but go to the party friday
miss emily betty: why? will you be there?
DownNout 0: ofcourse :-)
miss emily betty: hm. i'll think about it, i'd have to sneak out...
DownNout 0: like youve never done that before
miss emily betty: i know, but this is the weekend before finals...
miss emily betty: maybe i will, maybe i won't, i'll see who else is going.
DownNout 0: oh
DownNout 0: well itd be nice to see you
miss emily betty: ha! okay keith. who knows? maybe i'll show up....
miss emily betty: ciao.
DownNout 0: ha.
DownNout 0: whatever

I don't want any of that. I just know that it's not supposed to end like this.