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And.. Great. I now officially have absolutely no fucking idea how to fix this computer. This is just fucking depressing, now. Because now, when I do move, I'm out a computer. Out-fucking-standing. *Sighs*
I swear.. Sometimes I wonder if I'm just dying, right now, and all this crap is life trying to tell me to just give up.
Because, fuck. I've got a massive debt I owe to my old roommate because I couldn't get a job because I had to steal some food back when I was homeless. I've got a massive debt to my best friend for a computer I only got to use for a couple of months before it was fucking destroyed by a freak accident, because my current roommates never called their fucking landlord to get the basement I live in fixed. I've got my mother pissed off at me because I've borrowed somewhere between a grand and a grand and a half off of her to try and get my shit together, but oh look, I live in a shithole of a city where I can't get a goddamned thing done despite having gotten my previous shit cleared up legally. And I'm so fucking strained from handling all of that as well as a variety of other shit going on that I barely can keep my fucking head on straight.
Yeah, hell of a life you have here, Sye. What in the fucking hell.
Welcome to wonderful life lesson: Butterfly effect isn't a fucking pop philosophy thing. Look at the little bitty mistakes you've made and see just how fucked up your life is, now. Fuck your naive feelings of some kind of invincibility and capability you had. Just lay the fuck down. That's the impression I'm getting, here. It's fucking strangling me.
Oh, and let's compound things in that when you do lose your fucking computer, it's just another bit of karmic kickback for you to lose contact with everyone except the people you're immediately around, and you're cut off until you can somehow get all your debts paid and can afford to actually get a new computer running. Have fun. Ha ha. Fucking shit. *Sighs*
But you're too damned idealistic to lay your ass down like a good little boy, so let's just watch you wriggle until you either A) get yourself out of this crap, or B) wind up fucking yourself over even further, C) life decides to fuck you in the ass just a little bit deeper, or D) a combination of B and C. *Sighs and shakes his head* What in the hell did I do to deserve this?
I swear.. Sometimes I wonder if I'm just dying, right now, and all this crap is life trying to tell me to just give up.
Because, fuck. I've got a massive debt I owe to my old roommate because I couldn't get a job because I had to steal some food back when I was homeless. I've got a massive debt to my best friend for a computer I only got to use for a couple of months before it was fucking destroyed by a freak accident, because my current roommates never called their fucking landlord to get the basement I live in fixed. I've got my mother pissed off at me because I've borrowed somewhere between a grand and a grand and a half off of her to try and get my shit together, but oh look, I live in a shithole of a city where I can't get a goddamned thing done despite having gotten my previous shit cleared up legally. And I'm so fucking strained from handling all of that as well as a variety of other shit going on that I barely can keep my fucking head on straight.
Yeah, hell of a life you have here, Sye. What in the fucking hell.
Welcome to wonderful life lesson: Butterfly effect isn't a fucking pop philosophy thing. Look at the little bitty mistakes you've made and see just how fucked up your life is, now. Fuck your naive feelings of some kind of invincibility and capability you had. Just lay the fuck down. That's the impression I'm getting, here. It's fucking strangling me.
Oh, and let's compound things in that when you do lose your fucking computer, it's just another bit of karmic kickback for you to lose contact with everyone except the people you're immediately around, and you're cut off until you can somehow get all your debts paid and can afford to actually get a new computer running. Have fun. Ha ha. Fucking shit. *Sighs*
But you're too damned idealistic to lay your ass down like a good little boy, so let's just watch you wriggle until you either A) get yourself out of this crap, or B) wind up fucking yourself over even further, C) life decides to fuck you in the ass just a little bit deeper, or D) a combination of B and C. *Sighs and shakes his head* What in the hell did I do to deserve this?