(no subject)
He's the first guy that is very nice and very attractive that I've talked to and I'm not drooling after him, like totally in pre adoration-love. It's like I should be or something cos I always go gaga over guys and it hasn't hit me. I can finally just be myself around him, I'm still a little reserved cos I've only just met him, but that'll pass, and I don't know what makes it like this but it's cool, interesting. Ok. No relationship but a fab friendship, if it gets that far. I'm just so used to thinking about things going further when I meet new guys and this one's no different, but I don't really think I like him like that, although I should. It's confusing. He probably doesn't feel anything so we're ok.
"I just wanna be loved
I wanna hang with him so bad tho. It'd be awesome swapping stories and all. it'd be such a dream to go traveling together. I wonder why we've been known to each other. It has to mean something, us being in the same time and place and both from other places. Very coincidental. But a good one. It's all so precious cos we're both on holidays, kinda, and so impermanant. Got to make the most of it!
I watched Raise You're Voice yesterday (being official here) and I thought it was good. I always cry when someone dies and the one left has to be strong but starts to fall and when they get back up again it's wonderful. I'm a sucker for movie drama!
I have to have a holiday romance! It has to happen! It'd be so awesome and something to keep with me cos it was so special and all. I reckon I'll still be here in a month, even two. I don't see home on the horizon, I really don't. I've struck out on my own and I'm just getting onto the tight rope, ready to start walking. I wanted to get back down the ladder but now I'm up here I can't turn back. Full steam ahead! I want to be somewhere beautiful, grass, looking out to sea with the wind picking up and blowing my hair about. I love that. I love thinking cos that's mostly what I do and I'm mostly by myself... I just wanna get out there in that breeze. I could think for hours.
The ones I fall for skrew with my head. they never like me and I always build myself up for a let down and that's all I get, so maybe I won't be hurt cos I do't have lovey feelings for Isaac. We might have a romance and he'd start it and it could work and I'd just be happy with friends, but something might grow. That would work. Hey! My stars said to be open to new relationships on the 20th and it is the 20th! oh man. I think Isaac's working too cos I peeked at the roster but yeah. Maybe I'll end up going out afterwards, you never know. Might hang with some staff! Just what I'd like. It'd be cool to have a friday night again. i really want to meet friends of friends of the Y.C staff. That's my ultimate aim. Need contacts!
I stood half way over the bridge yesterday and looked out towards the sky and waited for the lightning and it came. The sky was all grey and cloudy and so beautiful, it was prefect and moving. I took some photos and I can't wait to see how they turned out. B&W of course, nothing else. I was on my way home from the video shop when I stopped. I had to come back with my camera but it was worth it. There were pelicans sitting on the lights above me, preening. They were so huge! Perfect. I love that weather, the thunder joining in and making it all so much better. What a wonderful natural occurrence. Congrats, Mother Mature. Love your work.
Being up here has taught me a lot. At home now I'd go straight into doing my own washing and stuff, even though mum'd have it under control. I'm so much more self-sufficient and that's great. I'm becoming an adult! Well I wouldn't quite get that far. But I am getting older. Nice one me. It's what I'm after, after all.
Should I get my eyebrow pierced? (Thinky smiley) Ella Hooper makes it look so good.
I never liked the combo of singing and techno but this CD's doing alright! I just needed something different to listen to instead of Delta, so I'm into my techno/electronic music now. Got lots to listen to and I think I'll be awake a fair while tonight, not as long as some night, but I slept too long yesterday morning. Hmm.
Ciao.
"I just wanna be loved
I wanna hang with him so bad tho. It'd be awesome swapping stories and all. it'd be such a dream to go traveling together. I wonder why we've been known to each other. It has to mean something, us being in the same time and place and both from other places. Very coincidental. But a good one. It's all so precious cos we're both on holidays, kinda, and so impermanant. Got to make the most of it!
I watched Raise You're Voice yesterday (being official here) and I thought it was good. I always cry when someone dies and the one left has to be strong but starts to fall and when they get back up again it's wonderful. I'm a sucker for movie drama!
I have to have a holiday romance! It has to happen! It'd be so awesome and something to keep with me cos it was so special and all. I reckon I'll still be here in a month, even two. I don't see home on the horizon, I really don't. I've struck out on my own and I'm just getting onto the tight rope, ready to start walking. I wanted to get back down the ladder but now I'm up here I can't turn back. Full steam ahead! I want to be somewhere beautiful, grass, looking out to sea with the wind picking up and blowing my hair about. I love that. I love thinking cos that's mostly what I do and I'm mostly by myself... I just wanna get out there in that breeze. I could think for hours.
The ones I fall for skrew with my head. they never like me and I always build myself up for a let down and that's all I get, so maybe I won't be hurt cos I do't have lovey feelings for Isaac. We might have a romance and he'd start it and it could work and I'd just be happy with friends, but something might grow. That would work. Hey! My stars said to be open to new relationships on the 20th and it is the 20th! oh man. I think Isaac's working too cos I peeked at the roster but yeah. Maybe I'll end up going out afterwards, you never know. Might hang with some staff! Just what I'd like. It'd be cool to have a friday night again. i really want to meet friends of friends of the Y.C staff. That's my ultimate aim. Need contacts!
I stood half way over the bridge yesterday and looked out towards the sky and waited for the lightning and it came. The sky was all grey and cloudy and so beautiful, it was prefect and moving. I took some photos and I can't wait to see how they turned out. B&W of course, nothing else. I was on my way home from the video shop when I stopped. I had to come back with my camera but it was worth it. There were pelicans sitting on the lights above me, preening. They were so huge! Perfect. I love that weather, the thunder joining in and making it all so much better. What a wonderful natural occurrence. Congrats, Mother Mature. Love your work.
Being up here has taught me a lot. At home now I'd go straight into doing my own washing and stuff, even though mum'd have it under control. I'm so much more self-sufficient and that's great. I'm becoming an adult! Well I wouldn't quite get that far. But I am getting older. Nice one me. It's what I'm after, after all.
Should I get my eyebrow pierced? (Thinky smiley) Ella Hooper makes it look so good.
I never liked the combo of singing and techno but this CD's doing alright! I just needed something different to listen to instead of Delta, so I'm into my techno/electronic music now. Got lots to listen to and I think I'll be awake a fair while tonight, not as long as some night, but I slept too long yesterday morning. Hmm.
Ciao.