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I want to go to the city! Enough of this small town loneliness! Time for the big stuff. Might go visit Andi soon like promised. Our new tradition, following the one of having dinner at each other's work. Mmm! Nice one. Very cool.
I don't know what I'm doing. I can't see clearly and "this life is like a game sometimes". That's how I feel too. This isn't grown-up's world. not to me. To other's they would think it is cos I'm out on my own but to me it's just games and make believe. An adventure. I'm like Isaac, heading away from home for work and new surroundings. I don't know his full case yet, if he's just out of school and 18 like me or anything. He is here indefinitely too, I like that. It's good to meet someone like him I could be friends with and have that for the rest of my life. Comforting somehow and totally my own experience memory thing. Mine.
I'm glad I'm not around Jeremy anymore. How fucked up is he!? I hate what he does and I'm blessed I'm not there to see it. I'm so sick of him! He's too familiar and now I'm in a new place, I want newness, new men, new everything. I don't want anything to do with him!
I don't know what I'm doing. I can't see clearly and "this life is like a game sometimes". That's how I feel too. This isn't grown-up's world. not to me. To other's they would think it is cos I'm out on my own but to me it's just games and make believe. An adventure. I'm like Isaac, heading away from home for work and new surroundings. I don't know his full case yet, if he's just out of school and 18 like me or anything. He is here indefinitely too, I like that. It's good to meet someone like him I could be friends with and have that for the rest of my life. Comforting somehow and totally my own experience memory thing. Mine.
I'm glad I'm not around Jeremy anymore. How fucked up is he!? I hate what he does and I'm blessed I'm not there to see it. I'm so sick of him! He's too familiar and now I'm in a new place, I want newness, new men, new everything. I don't want anything to do with him!