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I feel like everything around me is deteriorating
My world is falling apart
and there's no one left to care
ever since the many lines that were drawn over the summer before I left
and even the ones that have been cultivated after I got back
I have no part any more
no niche
and the worst part of it is that I am finally pursuing my dream of helping people
and I feel like I need help myslef
all I wanted to do was sing today
and there was no one that would allow me to
no one that would sing with me
I keep wondering if I was different if it would help
If I was more
pretty, interesting, skinny, talented, cultured, experianced, loving, skeptical, harsh, caring
would things be easier
I miss the people that I met in New Jersey
But I feel like even they,
wouldn't care if I didn't come back
I need something
But I can't put my finger on it
I don't know what it is
but i keep reaching for the imaginary object.
My world is falling apart
and there's no one left to care
ever since the many lines that were drawn over the summer before I left
and even the ones that have been cultivated after I got back
I have no part any more
no niche
and the worst part of it is that I am finally pursuing my dream of helping people
and I feel like I need help myslef
all I wanted to do was sing today
and there was no one that would allow me to
no one that would sing with me
I keep wondering if I was different if it would help
If I was more
pretty, interesting, skinny, talented, cultured, experianced, loving, skeptical, harsh, caring
would things be easier
I miss the people that I met in New Jersey
But I feel like even they,
wouldn't care if I didn't come back
I need something
But I can't put my finger on it
I don't know what it is
but i keep reaching for the imaginary object.