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I feel entirely too empty for my own good
like theres something missing even though I can't put my finger on it
maybe its because I just had a six hour rehersal
or maybe it's the fact that during the whole thing I watched a man who looks remarkably simialar to someone I am trying to forget cuddle with his girlfriend
I don't know If I'm in the right place
I don't know if I am doing the right thing
and worst of all I feel like I've lost myself somewhere along the way.
It snowed today and all I could think of was how it snowed about 3 years ago in February.
I don't know why i can forget everything and be completly content and then one memory breaks my heart
You know what else is really bad, people have stopped talking to me and I don't know why.
I guess I'm such a worthless bitch that I deserve that kind of treatment
and he broke his promise, he's never going to tlak to me again.
I don't think I want to talk to him now
I tried
and all he gave me was the whole of clarks summit thinking I was a stalker because I still cared
I feel like there's an empty space left in my chest, nothing can fill it up
i don't even want to go home because I know I'll have to face all this in person,
I just want to stay in my bubble in jersey where there are no unreal expectations
like theres something missing even though I can't put my finger on it
maybe its because I just had a six hour rehersal
or maybe it's the fact that during the whole thing I watched a man who looks remarkably simialar to someone I am trying to forget cuddle with his girlfriend
I don't know If I'm in the right place
I don't know if I am doing the right thing
and worst of all I feel like I've lost myself somewhere along the way.
It snowed today and all I could think of was how it snowed about 3 years ago in February.
I don't know why i can forget everything and be completly content and then one memory breaks my heart
You know what else is really bad, people have stopped talking to me and I don't know why.
I guess I'm such a worthless bitch that I deserve that kind of treatment
and he broke his promise, he's never going to tlak to me again.
I don't think I want to talk to him now
I tried
and all he gave me was the whole of clarks summit thinking I was a stalker because I still cared
I feel like there's an empty space left in my chest, nothing can fill it up
i don't even want to go home because I know I'll have to face all this in person,
I just want to stay in my bubble in jersey where there are no unreal expectations