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wah, one of the three times when i cried while reading fullmetal alchemist was nina tacker's story. watched it and cried again. oh gosh.
yesterday was a good day. internet was working almost perfectly. no more shit going around. because, when gadu-gadu (communicator) ragnarok online (web game) and bit torrent die at same time and start to work again at same time it's... strange. and when i called technical support they pinged my modem and said it's fine. it WASN'T fine. half of the internet dead fom 11am till 12am isn't fine. it's strange. because at the same time http, irc, gtalk, ftp worked. i need to format my disc anyway but if it continues after that i'll screw them. it's not that i want to talk on gg, play ro or download all the time but knowing that i'm unable to do so anytime i want makes me pissed off. and because yesterday i could i had a good day. i even cleaned my room (omg i forgot how my desk looked like!!! now i can see it without the shitload of stuff on it), sorted some old uni papers and today i plan to vacuum living room and clean bathroom. yeah, go me!!!
and, the cleaning thing makes me realise once again that i'm better of living alone. dad left with grandma and for a few days i'm all alone. it's so wonderful. i even have the will to clean, cook, do something. it was the same when dad was hospitalised. living alone i cleaned and it was just... bitter-sweet but i prefer it. i want to live alone. gosh, so many years till that comes.
had a little SM stroke yesterday, i think. out of blue my head started to feel big, with enormous blood pressure. i felt fait, my limbs had gotten numb. i thought i'd collapse right away so i just went o lay on the bed and became sort of unconscious for like 20 minutes. just got up to close the balcony and my window because i wasn't sure when i'd get up for real ad i don't trust my cats to be left alone with opened windows. i thought, for a second, about calling an ambulance. but then slowly i got it together, i felt like after some hardcore vomitting. shaken and weak. and my blood pressure went to shit, 102/64. coffee didn't help much (aside from making me totally awake at 1am, orz). didn't wash hair, did nothing because the electricity had some orgasms and it was pitch black so i guess today i won't do anything from what i planned. and i need to translate, go out doing errands, clean... geez. SM just wanted to say "hey lady, i'm still there, don't forget me". because... i forget about it. lawlz. i forget that i'm seriously sick, how wonderful is that?
calling my doctor today to ask her if the date for my first appointment is set. i'm kind of nervous. soon my practices start and fucking uni too (this year will be badass as it's supposed to be 80% german. am i REALLY majoring in ENGLISH?). if the date is the same for practices, will it be alright to leave them? should i talk with my guardian? i hope she's nice. i think i'll go and meet her some days before my two weeks start.
I WATCHED ANIME. FIRST TIME SINCE JULY (FUCKING RO). RAWRRRRRRR. brave story movie is like "neverending story" animated. but ending is fucked up. it's just... making it over-sweet. hollywood-style-like. boo!
also: http://www.askmen.com/specials/top_99_women :| men have strange tastes, seriously. not many i liked from there. ut thanks god they aren't XS size, flat in, flat out. the have boobs, asses and hips in the right place >.> not that i want to offend anyone who doesn't, i WANT TO offend anyone who wants to be like a sheet of paper. if you look like a woman, STAY LIKE THAT. don't make yourself into something unknown. yeah, i like my women hot and womanly :E
ETA: going to lublin tomorrow. in this FUCKING HEAT i'm seriously afraid i'll come back in ambulance. like today, i have shitload of errands to run outside but i can't go out. nevermind SM, i just feel awful. geez. i NEED TO GO OUT, please, rain, thunders, whatever. who in their right mind heard about 35C at 9am?!?
yesterday was a good day. internet was working almost perfectly. no more shit going around. because, when gadu-gadu (communicator) ragnarok online (web game) and bit torrent die at same time and start to work again at same time it's... strange. and when i called technical support they pinged my modem and said it's fine. it WASN'T fine. half of the internet dead fom 11am till 12am isn't fine. it's strange. because at the same time http, irc, gtalk, ftp worked. i need to format my disc anyway but if it continues after that i'll screw them. it's not that i want to talk on gg, play ro or download all the time but knowing that i'm unable to do so anytime i want makes me pissed off. and because yesterday i could i had a good day. i even cleaned my room (omg i forgot how my desk looked like!!! now i can see it without the shitload of stuff on it), sorted some old uni papers and today i plan to vacuum living room and clean bathroom. yeah, go me!!!
and, the cleaning thing makes me realise once again that i'm better of living alone. dad left with grandma and for a few days i'm all alone. it's so wonderful. i even have the will to clean, cook, do something. it was the same when dad was hospitalised. living alone i cleaned and it was just... bitter-sweet but i prefer it. i want to live alone. gosh, so many years till that comes.
had a little SM stroke yesterday, i think. out of blue my head started to feel big, with enormous blood pressure. i felt fait, my limbs had gotten numb. i thought i'd collapse right away so i just went o lay on the bed and became sort of unconscious for like 20 minutes. just got up to close the balcony and my window because i wasn't sure when i'd get up for real ad i don't trust my cats to be left alone with opened windows. i thought, for a second, about calling an ambulance. but then slowly i got it together, i felt like after some hardcore vomitting. shaken and weak. and my blood pressure went to shit, 102/64. coffee didn't help much (aside from making me totally awake at 1am, orz). didn't wash hair, did nothing because the electricity had some orgasms and it was pitch black so i guess today i won't do anything from what i planned. and i need to translate, go out doing errands, clean... geez. SM just wanted to say "hey lady, i'm still there, don't forget me". because... i forget about it. lawlz. i forget that i'm seriously sick, how wonderful is that?
calling my doctor today to ask her if the date for my first appointment is set. i'm kind of nervous. soon my practices start and fucking uni too (this year will be badass as it's supposed to be 80% german. am i REALLY majoring in ENGLISH?). if the date is the same for practices, will it be alright to leave them? should i talk with my guardian? i hope she's nice. i think i'll go and meet her some days before my two weeks start.
I WATCHED ANIME. FIRST TIME SINCE JULY (FUCKING RO). RAWRRRRRRR. brave story movie is like "neverending story" animated. but ending is fucked up. it's just... making it over-sweet. hollywood-style-like. boo!
also: http://www.askmen.com/specials/top_99_women :| men have strange tastes, seriously. not many i liked from there. ut thanks god they aren't XS size, flat in, flat out. the have boobs, asses and hips in the right place >.> not that i want to offend anyone who doesn't, i WANT TO offend anyone who wants to be like a sheet of paper. if you look like a woman, STAY LIKE THAT. don't make yourself into something unknown. yeah, i like my women hot and womanly :E
ETA: going to lublin tomorrow. in this FUCKING HEAT i'm seriously afraid i'll come back in ambulance. like today, i have shitload of errands to run outside but i can't go out. nevermind SM, i just feel awful. geez. i NEED TO GO OUT, please, rain, thunders, whatever. who in their right mind heard about 35C at 9am?!?