[i miss you.]
days until GLEE is back from summer's hiatus: 17
sometimes i wonder how is she. i miss her so fucking much. my internet friend of ten years. why can't you work on your life and still send a text or e-mail from time to time? why do you have to cut all contact? how does talking to me, even once per two weeks, prevents you from sorting out everything? wouldn't i be helping, being there and listening. ten years. ten fucking years. and we've never met in person, i had money saved to go and see you, just once, to talk. this year. why, why. why can't i forget your phone number. sometimes i just want to sent a message "hi, how are you?" but then i need to scream or make myself angry, telling myself that you're a fucking bitch, not worth it.
i thought we were close. you were so important to me. not a lover, a friend, something more solid.
i just miss you and you'll never see it.
where are you, did you manage to sort everything out, are you happy?
i miss you.
sometimes i wonder how is she. i miss her so fucking much. my internet friend of ten years. why can't you work on your life and still send a text or e-mail from time to time? why do you have to cut all contact? how does talking to me, even once per two weeks, prevents you from sorting out everything? wouldn't i be helping, being there and listening. ten years. ten fucking years. and we've never met in person, i had money saved to go and see you, just once, to talk. this year. why, why. why can't i forget your phone number. sometimes i just want to sent a message "hi, how are you?" but then i need to scream or make myself angry, telling myself that you're a fucking bitch, not worth it.
i thought we were close. you were so important to me. not a lover, a friend, something more solid.
i just miss you and you'll never see it.
where are you, did you manage to sort everything out, are you happy?
i miss you.