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I want to leave. I am disliking every second more and more living here. Ths entire city is founded upon cheats and lies. Even the suburbs are founded upon cheats and lies. When you move here, you become a cheater and a liar. I feel like my sense of identity is under attack from all sides, this town... these people trying to turn me into one of them. I am seriously considering leaving my internship and going back to Athens.
It's not so much that I dislike D.C. and Fairfax, it is more that I feel accepted in Athens. I feel at home in Athens. I am a fish out of water here, and I feel like if I stay I'll become dried out, drowned, and have my corpulent carcass on sale the next day. That's what this town is doing to me... it feels like I'm being devalued simply because I'm not a doctor, a CEO, or a senator. The highest-up people live and work here... to be completely frank, I don't want to be one of them. I don't want to have to worry 24 hours a day. It's not that I worry about specific things, more that you just become paranoid about everything, including yourself.
I honestly wish I had something good to write about right now, but I really don't... aside from my viewing Star Wars episode III, which was significantly better than the previous two.
But that's it.
Isn't it sad? I thought so.
It's not so much that I dislike D.C. and Fairfax, it is more that I feel accepted in Athens. I feel at home in Athens. I am a fish out of water here, and I feel like if I stay I'll become dried out, drowned, and have my corpulent carcass on sale the next day. That's what this town is doing to me... it feels like I'm being devalued simply because I'm not a doctor, a CEO, or a senator. The highest-up people live and work here... to be completely frank, I don't want to be one of them. I don't want to have to worry 24 hours a day. It's not that I worry about specific things, more that you just become paranoid about everything, including yourself.
I honestly wish I had something good to write about right now, but I really don't... aside from my viewing Star Wars episode III, which was significantly better than the previous two.
But that's it.
Isn't it sad? I thought so.