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So I heard back from WashU... didn't get the scholarship there I wanted. Made for kind of a rough night. I don't know how hopeful I still am... I don't see how I'm ever going to have the money to go there. People think that you just have to be smart, but you don't, you have to be smart and rich. Wait and see, wait and see. I hate the wait and see game. But it might be as much as another month (for Cornell and Rochester too....). Ugh. Makes it so hard to plan for anything.
I never feel like I know what I want anymore. I was so excited for this year and it started out so well. Brilliantly. It just all fell apart around December. Boy issues, college issues, general life-contentedness issues...