23 years ago, I embarked on my first day of fourth grade ( Read more... )

I'm in a very weird space of "in-between" right now. Not totally done with marketing for Book Two, but also already wanting to move on from it. I'm not going to put so much energy into the marketing this time. That's a conscious choice I am making for my own mental health. But I do have some more snippets to share with you once I've rested a bit ( Read more... )

I had a bit of a stressful dream last night about school and feeling left out when my high school class graduated. Now, I realize why. Today was the last day I went to school ten years ago. Yeah, ten. That's a long time. For a while, I blamed myself for not being strong enough to carry on, but I've realized that I did what I had to. The longer I ( Read more... )

I dreamed quite vividly last night. Mostly of Morgan. Now that I'm awake, I feel like my heart was carved out. I just want to go back to sleep where Morgan is real and with me. Awake, I'm just miserable and alone.

But maybe it's normal to feel miserable today.

I want to write something beautiful and poignant about today, but I don't know how. I feel ( Read more... )

I spent most of the week working on Dreaming in Shadow here and there. I wrote a decently long chapter for me. My long chapters don't tend to be the most exciting, action-y scenes. No, those I stumble with sometimes. The chapters that just keep on going for me are the character-driven scenes, where you get to really know people. I can't believe I' ( Read more... )

I've been writing a lot of journal entries lately, haven't I? I guess I've had a lot to say. Strange. Being depressed makes me wordy, apparently. That makes sense, actually. I guess this wave of depression started with those dreams on Thursday. I feel too deeply, and it always causes me pain. I'm feeling very alone and depressed. Truthfully, I know ( Read more... )

I'm still in a gaming mood. After reading a friend's blog post, I decided to download Secret of Mana. She barely mentions it, but I'd been meaning to give that series a shot, and she mentioned it as a classic. I also played about 4-5 hours of Persona 4 yesterday. Partly because I needed a really strong distraction. Today, the distraction is NANA. ( Read more... )

I had a dream last night that is now a brand new story. It's very sad. I just wrote a little of a scene, and I actually cried while writing it. That the first time I've done that. (I should clarify; it's the first time that writing has made me cry, but I have many, many times turned crying into writing.) It's not as though I don't write sad things ( Read more... )

I have a lot of interesting dreams. I'm also pretty good at remembering them. A lot of my story ideas end up coming from dreams. But sometimes, I just have weird fandom-ish dreams. So, since I haven't posted in awhile I thought I'd let people in on a few things that are *going to happen... according to my dreams... from the last couple of days ( Read more... )

Dreaming in Shadow is not exactly my first original story, but it's the first one I loved enough that I decided right away that I wanted it to be my first published work. It started, as many of my story ideas, as a dream. It was December 24, 2003. I woke to a dizzying amount of details flooding my brain. Somehow I knew things that went along with ( Read more... )