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Holy God. I am bored. This morning has dragged like crazy. It’s still only 10 of 1.I want today to be over so Steve & I can do fun things this weekend. I want to be outside doing something not stuck in a cubicle. Blech.
So, I think I’m better now. The beginning of this week was a little difficult...for the readers that don’t know: I googled my ex boyfriend to see if I could find an updated number to give him a call and see how he was doing and found out that he was in the psych ward at St. Luke’s hospital and apparently flung himself from the roof and killed himself in December.
So I’m about 3 months too late to get back in touch with him. It’s just so weird to think about. I met him the summer of 2001..what the hell happened in two years? He was brilliant, got accepted to Harvard, went to Penn State, was an amazing volleyball player and he was gorgeous…beautiful, smooth Cape Verdean skin, light hazel eyes…just so cute and sweet and smart…and 2 years later he threw himself off a 6 story building. What is going on in the world?
And I was ok thinking “Maybe it’s a different Carl Gourdin” before I found an article from the New Bedford Standard Times paper that included his high school picture when he still had his cute kinky black hair afro.
So strange.
So, I think I’m better now. The beginning of this week was a little difficult...for the readers that don’t know: I googled my ex boyfriend to see if I could find an updated number to give him a call and see how he was doing and found out that he was in the psych ward at St. Luke’s hospital and apparently flung himself from the roof and killed himself in December.
So I’m about 3 months too late to get back in touch with him. It’s just so weird to think about. I met him the summer of 2001..what the hell happened in two years? He was brilliant, got accepted to Harvard, went to Penn State, was an amazing volleyball player and he was gorgeous…beautiful, smooth Cape Verdean skin, light hazel eyes…just so cute and sweet and smart…and 2 years later he threw himself off a 6 story building. What is going on in the world?
And I was ok thinking “Maybe it’s a different Carl Gourdin” before I found an article from the New Bedford Standard Times paper that included his high school picture when he still had his cute kinky black hair afro.
So strange.