Aug 02, 2005 09:44
Dearest Amanda,
Well her I am, in Prison! I never thought Id be here of all places. I just got here but already the days are going by slow. Im in what they call quarintine. Basically Im locked in my cell 24-7 for 5-7 Business days [not including weekends] except to see the doctor, dentist, or pshycoligist. But I have to admit it is much better than county jail, its alot cleaner, alot bigger, and we eat way better.
I cant wait for your letters to start coming through that door. I miss you more and more as the day goes by. I think about you all the time. I find myself often wondering what you're doing at this very moment, what youre wearing, who youre with. Sounds crazy dont it. Well, crazy as it may sound but its the truth. I hope you realize how much I love you. I know Ive made alot of mistakes. Ive fucked up many, many times. Ive cheated, Ive lied, Ive left you hanging when you needed me the most.And im not going to deny That Ive cheated on you. Id have to be a total idiot to think that you would believe me. But I realized something new this time.
Out of all the girls who said they loved me and wanted to be with me forever, you were the only one who really meant it, I know this because you are the only one who wrote me and the only one who cared. My onw mother didnt even care as much as you. I wish I could express how much that means to me in a letter, but I cant. So Ill just have to show you when I get out.
I wish I caould see you but unfortunately I cant. Only imidiate family members can come see me in Dodge but once I get transferred out to another prison... I have some good news for you. I may not be in as long as you think, As a matter of fact I might be out much sooner than you think, butits not for sure yet so dont get you hopes up for now. Ill know for sure in about a month or so.
I wish I could hold you in my arms right now.
Today was a really long day and Im glad its over, but from what peopl tell me tomorrow will be even longer. Tell everyone that matters that I love them and miss them. See if you can get some of my friends to write to me. Send pictures as soon as possible. Always remember that I love you and no matter what happens that will never change. You will always be Mi Amora a Mi Angelita
3-8-1 xoxoxo
3 words 8 letters one meaning
I love you