Heather Bitchin' Again I Guess
I feel really out of sorts right now, and my mom pegged it to "not fitting" and maybe that's true.
Went back to my high school today when school was in session. Yes, I was showered with love and affection and everything by friends, which is great... but its so weird to go back to school and not go there. I mean, it feels like a completely different school than it was when I went there now. And activities I used to be part of are taking off and its not like I have anything to show for college. I haven't started anything new yet 'cause I'm not there.
And I just feel weird... I mean, Anime Club was planned and everything and I got asked one question during the whole thing, indirectly. I guess I was just.... hoping someone might want my notes or something but I guess I'm old news.
Feels weird to be the old one and kinda be out to the curb a bit on high school. And I don't know if I really wanna go back again before school starts, even though I promised I would... It just makes me feel lkinda depressed and I can't afford to already be homesick when I haven't even left yet.
And I need to pack this weekend as in the words of my mom "Just because you don't pack doesn't mean we're not leaving on Wednesday".
In the meantime, I leave for school on Wednesday. And while I'm super-psyched about all that its gonna be weird. Parents get kicked out on Thursday. And.. yup, that's it. Guess here's to not being forgotten while I"m away XD (as I'm really the only one going away. Everyone else is still nearby ><.
And hiatus starting next Wednesday until maybe Sat-Sunday or longer. Gotta get adjusted.
Night all~
Went back to my high school today when school was in session. Yes, I was showered with love and affection and everything by friends, which is great... but its so weird to go back to school and not go there. I mean, it feels like a completely different school than it was when I went there now. And activities I used to be part of are taking off and its not like I have anything to show for college. I haven't started anything new yet 'cause I'm not there.
And I just feel weird... I mean, Anime Club was planned and everything and I got asked one question during the whole thing, indirectly. I guess I was just.... hoping someone might want my notes or something but I guess I'm old news.
Feels weird to be the old one and kinda be out to the curb a bit on high school. And I don't know if I really wanna go back again before school starts, even though I promised I would... It just makes me feel lkinda depressed and I can't afford to already be homesick when I haven't even left yet.
And I need to pack this weekend as in the words of my mom "Just because you don't pack doesn't mean we're not leaving on Wednesday".
In the meantime, I leave for school on Wednesday. And while I'm super-psyched about all that its gonna be weird. Parents get kicked out on Thursday. And.. yup, that's it. Guess here's to not being forgotten while I"m away XD (as I'm really the only one going away. Everyone else is still nearby ><.
And hiatus starting next Wednesday until maybe Sat-Sunday or longer. Gotta get adjusted.
Night all~