Jul 27, 2005 02:02
i still cant sleep. Always having steven on the mine. wish that somedays i can just forget about him that oneday i wake up n there is no members of him. but other days i wish i can wake up n have what me n steven ones had or something like it. i think steven doesnt want me to know how he really feels he hinds his feelin from a lot of people well the people that i talk to that know him. i been so bord latly. there nothin to do. this summer suxs. i lost the one thing that i can never replace n i didnt get to go anywere get away from this place. it still had it good times. just hangin with my good friends n stil dancin.
i been helpin with my mom doin the backyard gettin it to look pretty. n its mostly done we had some fine ass dudes helping us.omg what bodys they had. i want to go see my real mom. if u dont understand that then dont wear about it. sam gettin home really soon. we are goin to six flags when she getts back n goin to be hella fun. i dont know how is all goin with us but i think we want 6 people all together.
i almost died yesterday. me n my mom was drivin down to see my real mom n it was rain pretty hard but it was slowin down so it was fine. well we were just talkin n i just know that we were sping around n around tryin not the hit the meadens. but it was so funny that we came so close to hittin them n flippin but we didnt. it was like omg r we alive. i was like omg im goin to die. but this dude in the car next to us was like yea go u guys. u had to be there it was so much fun i want to do it again. lol.
im been lookin for some jobs so when i get my car next year i can pimp it up. it goin to look alswom i have shit for it now. but first i need to go n get my permite. lol that would be a good thing. i think i will do that sometime this week. maybe firday or monday of next week.
there nothin really goin on so im goin to go
peace out.