Tired, Mary elayne, Lonely.
Been a long while since I've posted. Well I might as well do it now. Mither sent out Matt's gift yesterday. I hope he all of what I got him. I'm kinda short on cash though so they weren't as great as they should be. *tear* I have to explain some of the stuff too so he gets their meaning.
I really miss talking to him constantly. He was my person to vent to, discuss things with, and just talk in general. It was great. Like it sounds so little, but it means a lot to me. I never have to worry about boring him, he never says anything mean or hurtful, is always supporting, wonderful to talk to, etc. I could go on and on with the list. At least we still converse in emails. I can't wait for mither to refill my phone card as an early Bday gift! I'm going to call him on his birthday this sunday if I can. I better be able to, or it's going on the normal phone bill with risk of groundation. I'm just not sure exactly when to call so that I don't interupt his sleep, so that's he's not tired at work. *tear* Cornfusled.
I'm starting to fall behind in school. which sucks, because I don't know how it's happening. Keefover lost some of my math papers which makes me angry. But the rest just seems to happen it 's because teachers don't look at other teacher's homework schedules. So they end up not giving us work on some days then all giving us work on the same days, so we're sctrabbling trying to get it done. So I get as much as I can done and I sort of have to be prudent in what I'm doing and skip some homework and do what all I can of the rest and rotate what I don't do by the grade I have, but that makes it so I only have mediocre (spelling?) grades which really sucks. Gah! It's all too much stress. I'm lacking majorly in sleep too. My body always feels ten times its normal weight and my head aches constantly.
M.e. came up this weekend. It was a blast. Friday night we all left school and M.e. eventually met us out back of the school. We then went to Brianna's house for a while and visited there. From there we were taken to a surprise location which turned out to be Roxanne's house that Janet was housesitting. It was Briann, Mary Elayne, Rachael, Janine, and Janet at first and we all hung out while we waited for the pizza to come. It was delivered by Bri's aunt. She was awesome. I really liked her and she was nice to talk to. Then Dave, Janet's fiance came. We painted our nails and then we played ungame, which is awesome by the way. After that we went on a midnight hike. Then back to the hosue to hangout some more. We stayed the night and Janine had to get up at like five to go on a trip with her church. We thought she went to sleep at 12am, but she was actually awake as long as we were, to 4:30am. The rest of us woke up around 8 or 9ish and we left around 11 I think. Mither came to pick me up and Mary Elayne almost had to come home with me, because I didn't want to let her outta a hug. That Saturday I hung around the house boerd as hell untill I got to talk to Matt for a split second before he left.
sunday I went on a hike on a mountain side in vlack well. It would have been really fun, but I was so exhausted from bawling after my confrontation with my father that morning that it was not so fun walking up that steep side. It was okay going down though and I was happy to get to Janine's house. Her whole friggen house is like my comfort zone. There's just something about the atmosphere of that house that makes me feel so at ease. I love it there. We hung out there for a tiny bit and then M.e. got there and we went to get Brianna. We got back and celebrated Janine's 18th Bday, even though it was a belated party. We ate a pink guitar shaped cake. And Mrs. Maneval made like a friggen feast of chicken (poor vegetarion M.e.), creamed corn, baked potatoe slices, squash, fruit salad, and whatever else I may or may not be missing. All of it was all homemade and organic of course. It was SO delicioso! i loved it all. And once again I surprised Mr. Maneval that I drink coffee. Lol.
That night we went to youth group. It was fun. Nick came too! At first he told me he wouldn't make it but he did. We palyed a really wierd game and M.e. and I were guards of these little balls and I made Crystal's brother go splat onhis back by automatically grabbing him (by the hood of his hoodie.) and he falling flat on his back. Then I got Seth Steele, but he was like no you didn't. *rolls eyes* Mr. Macho, "I'm athletic and buff "didn't want to admit he'd gotten tagged by a friggen girl. I had Matt Coppage in a could hold at one point cause the moron was on our team, but he went around distrbuting our balls with the other three teams. He's a fruit cake. We tried to skip the devotions that night, but Dave sent us in. Mary Elayne started crying because the fact that she was leaving us in a few hours was starting to sink in plus some other issues she hasn't quite dealt with yet. I wanted to make her feel better. I would have gladly taken her pain and bore it myself so she didn't have to hurt as much as she was. I can't imagine what she was going through. When you get down to it it;s selfish for me to feel bad about her leaving when she's the one most effected by it and she has to go back to a city and school of superficial people that have never really fully bonded with her as true friends. I hugged her about a million times before I left to go home. I refused to cry then and we took Nick home and he's always great to talk too and he kept my mind occupied. I got home and I had homework to do so I still didn't let myself cry I just did what I had to do then passed out from utter exhaustion, which I obviously have not escaped from either. After that I was just kinda numb. It's pointless to cry anyhow. It's not like it's going to bring her back, or help me, or help her. I cry too much anyhow. I'm a fucking drama queen is what I am.
Well I shall do some more homework and hope that Matt gets on soon so I can talk to him.
I really miss talking to him constantly. He was my person to vent to, discuss things with, and just talk in general. It was great. Like it sounds so little, but it means a lot to me. I never have to worry about boring him, he never says anything mean or hurtful, is always supporting, wonderful to talk to, etc. I could go on and on with the list. At least we still converse in emails. I can't wait for mither to refill my phone card as an early Bday gift! I'm going to call him on his birthday this sunday if I can. I better be able to, or it's going on the normal phone bill with risk of groundation. I'm just not sure exactly when to call so that I don't interupt his sleep, so that's he's not tired at work. *tear* Cornfusled.
I'm starting to fall behind in school. which sucks, because I don't know how it's happening. Keefover lost some of my math papers which makes me angry. But the rest just seems to happen it 's because teachers don't look at other teacher's homework schedules. So they end up not giving us work on some days then all giving us work on the same days, so we're sctrabbling trying to get it done. So I get as much as I can done and I sort of have to be prudent in what I'm doing and skip some homework and do what all I can of the rest and rotate what I don't do by the grade I have, but that makes it so I only have mediocre (spelling?) grades which really sucks. Gah! It's all too much stress. I'm lacking majorly in sleep too. My body always feels ten times its normal weight and my head aches constantly.
M.e. came up this weekend. It was a blast. Friday night we all left school and M.e. eventually met us out back of the school. We then went to Brianna's house for a while and visited there. From there we were taken to a surprise location which turned out to be Roxanne's house that Janet was housesitting. It was Briann, Mary Elayne, Rachael, Janine, and Janet at first and we all hung out while we waited for the pizza to come. It was delivered by Bri's aunt. She was awesome. I really liked her and she was nice to talk to. Then Dave, Janet's fiance came. We painted our nails and then we played ungame, which is awesome by the way. After that we went on a midnight hike. Then back to the hosue to hangout some more. We stayed the night and Janine had to get up at like five to go on a trip with her church. We thought she went to sleep at 12am, but she was actually awake as long as we were, to 4:30am. The rest of us woke up around 8 or 9ish and we left around 11 I think. Mither came to pick me up and Mary Elayne almost had to come home with me, because I didn't want to let her outta a hug. That Saturday I hung around the house boerd as hell untill I got to talk to Matt for a split second before he left.
sunday I went on a hike on a mountain side in vlack well. It would have been really fun, but I was so exhausted from bawling after my confrontation with my father that morning that it was not so fun walking up that steep side. It was okay going down though and I was happy to get to Janine's house. Her whole friggen house is like my comfort zone. There's just something about the atmosphere of that house that makes me feel so at ease. I love it there. We hung out there for a tiny bit and then M.e. got there and we went to get Brianna. We got back and celebrated Janine's 18th Bday, even though it was a belated party. We ate a pink guitar shaped cake. And Mrs. Maneval made like a friggen feast of chicken (poor vegetarion M.e.), creamed corn, baked potatoe slices, squash, fruit salad, and whatever else I may or may not be missing. All of it was all homemade and organic of course. It was SO delicioso! i loved it all. And once again I surprised Mr. Maneval that I drink coffee. Lol.
That night we went to youth group. It was fun. Nick came too! At first he told me he wouldn't make it but he did. We palyed a really wierd game and M.e. and I were guards of these little balls and I made Crystal's brother go splat onhis back by automatically grabbing him (by the hood of his hoodie.) and he falling flat on his back. Then I got Seth Steele, but he was like no you didn't. *rolls eyes* Mr. Macho, "I'm athletic and buff "didn't want to admit he'd gotten tagged by a friggen girl. I had Matt Coppage in a could hold at one point cause the moron was on our team, but he went around distrbuting our balls with the other three teams. He's a fruit cake. We tried to skip the devotions that night, but Dave sent us in. Mary Elayne started crying because the fact that she was leaving us in a few hours was starting to sink in plus some other issues she hasn't quite dealt with yet. I wanted to make her feel better. I would have gladly taken her pain and bore it myself so she didn't have to hurt as much as she was. I can't imagine what she was going through. When you get down to it it;s selfish for me to feel bad about her leaving when she's the one most effected by it and she has to go back to a city and school of superficial people that have never really fully bonded with her as true friends. I hugged her about a million times before I left to go home. I refused to cry then and we took Nick home and he's always great to talk too and he kept my mind occupied. I got home and I had homework to do so I still didn't let myself cry I just did what I had to do then passed out from utter exhaustion, which I obviously have not escaped from either. After that I was just kinda numb. It's pointless to cry anyhow. It's not like it's going to bring her back, or help me, or help her. I cry too much anyhow. I'm a fucking drama queen is what I am.
Well I shall do some more homework and hope that Matt gets on soon so I can talk to him.