Firstly, I just want to say how happy I was to see you comment. It really has been forever since we spoke :)
Secondly, you have no clue how strange I find it to see people feeling the same way. And the funniest part is that of the two people who have commented saying that they feel inferior about their fics i.e. you and ALi - well, your fics are some of those that I really, really like.
I'm not going to stop writing. As I said, once it's in my head it has to come out. But earlier I used to love posting what I wrote. Even if I got mindless comments on it, I'd still like it. It feels good to know that what you wrote is being appreciated.
Lately, I haven't felt that at all. Ali says that my fics have improved. I actually disagree. I much preferred my older fics, even if they were all similar. And the changing nature and num,ber of comments only leads me to believe that my older fics were better.
Though even the old lot of fics ... I hated them at that time and then people praised them and I felt good about them and then along came the nominations for the PS awards last year and I got one nomination (that too for wierdest pairing.) It felt bad, really, really discouraging. I continued to write though cos I felt that clearly there was room for improvement. But obviously in one year nothing has changed.
Ummm ... I don't what my point in all this is or whether I've actually responded to anything you said but I guess that's just how I've been feeling.
We really do need to speak more, don't we? Do you have msn?
You really like my fics? Why? *giggles* sorry, bad habit.
It can get hard when you feel like it's not appreciated. It's suddenly like 'Why both posting it at all?' I don't know... I'm still trying to get my head around it myself.
Last year I got no nominations! Well, that's cause I hadn't written anything haha. And this year, well...I don't know... I kinda... I feel like I'm not nominated for my real fics, you know? I mean, yeah, I'm glad penis talk got a nom, its nice actually cause I don't find it funny, but... it's not something with real depth and... I'm ranting again :S
Secondly, you have no clue how strange I find it to see people feeling the same way. And the funniest part is that of the two people who have commented saying that they feel inferior about their fics i.e. you and ALi - well, your fics are some of those that I really, really like.
I'm not going to stop writing. As I said, once it's in my head it has to come out. But earlier I used to love posting what I wrote. Even if I got mindless comments on it, I'd still like it. It feels good to know that what you wrote is being appreciated.
Lately, I haven't felt that at all. Ali says that my fics have improved. I actually disagree. I much preferred my older fics, even if they were all similar. And the changing nature and num,ber of comments only leads me to believe that my older fics were better.
Though even the old lot of fics ... I hated them at that time and then people praised them and I felt good about them and then along came the nominations for the PS awards last year and I got one nomination (that too for wierdest pairing.) It felt bad, really, really discouraging. I continued to write though cos I felt that clearly there was room for improvement. But obviously in one year nothing has changed.
Ummm ... I don't what my point in all this is or whether I've actually responded to anything you said but I guess that's just how I've been feeling.
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You really like my fics? Why? *giggles* sorry, bad habit.
It can get hard when you feel like it's not appreciated. It's suddenly like 'Why both posting it at all?' I don't know... I'm still trying to get my head around it myself.
Last year I got no nominations! Well, that's cause I hadn't written anything haha. And this year, well...I don't know... I kinda... I feel like I'm not nominated for my real fics, you know? I mean, yeah, I'm glad penis talk got a nom, its nice actually cause I don't find it funny, but... it's not something with real depth and... I'm ranting again :S
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