oh darling, i am sorry, yet glad you wrote this. glad because it's good to know how you are feeling, sorry, because i hope you don't stop writing.
i found myself nodding myself through most of what you said.
am I the only one who actually lets my feelings of inferiority prevent me from writing or posting?
*raises hand*
pick me! no really, t feel inferior compared to a lot of authors on PS. i'd go so far to say i feel like a fraud most of the time. it's only going to take one person to rip apart my fics for the shame they are to put me off - for a while at least. and no, i am not making that up. you have no doubt noticed the number of nominations i've received - including best overall writer - and it still doesn't change the way i feel.
Hi darling. I fail to understand why you would feel insecure about your fics. You are by far one of the best writers on this comm.
However, I understand that you may feel inferior about your fics but in your case, the number of comments you get per fic, the fact that you have been nominated in so many categories (including many of the big ones) just shows how much people like your fics.
In my case, I not only feel inferior about my fics but the sentiment kind of gets the extra push when only a few people comment on the fics or when awards like these produce nominations at all
( ... )
We really do need to speak more, don't we? Do you have msn?
You really like my fics? Why? *giggles* sorry, bad habit.
It can get hard when you feel like it's not appreciated. It's suddenly like 'Why both posting it at all?' I don't know... I'm still trying to get my head around it myself.
Last year I got no nominations! Well, that's cause I hadn't written anything haha. And this year, well...I don't know... I kinda... I feel like I'm not nominated for my real fics, you know? I mean, yeah, I'm glad penis talk got a nom, its nice actually cause I don't find it funny, but... it's not something with real depth and... I'm ranting again :S
I think everyone (even the great Ali obviously!) have insecurities about their fics. And who wouldn't! Putting something you've spent a lot of time and energy on out into the wide world for all to deride takes balls.I admire the people who post regularly, even if I don't always like their fics.
I think when people stop commenting, it's a sign that you've grown stale and you need a change of plot/character/etcetc. I'm glad some people see that and take action.
And for what it's worth, I love your fics and I miss them. There are nowhere near enough BC slash around.
Hi darling! It's not just a question onf having insecurities. Almost everyone wonders about what they write. And one big way of dispelling those insecurities is by seeing how many comments. praises, nominations, awards etc you get.
Ali is insecure about her fics, that I know. But you see the response she gets and you realise you popular and loved her fics are. It indicates a real talent. When you don't get that for your own fics, the feeling of insecurity kind of just gets instilled and stays.
As for you liking my fics ... thank you darling. But clearly there are very few like you around. I can't stop writing but I think from now own they will be more for my own consumptions than anyone else's. Perhaps thats the way it should have been all along.
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i found myself nodding myself through most of what you said.
am I the only one who actually lets my feelings of inferiority prevent me from writing or posting?
*raises hand*
pick me! no really, t feel inferior compared to a lot of authors on PS. i'd go so far to say i feel like a fraud most of the time. it's only going to take one person to rip apart my fics for the shame they are to put me off - for a while at least. and no, i am not making that up. you have no doubt noticed the number of nominations i've received - including best overall writer - and it still doesn't change the way i feel.
*big hugs*
i still stand by what i nominated you for.
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However, I understand that you may feel inferior about your fics but in your case, the number of comments you get per fic, the fact that you have been nominated in so many categories (including many of the big ones) just shows how much people like your fics.
In my case, I not only feel inferior about my fics but the sentiment kind of gets the extra push when only a few people comment on the fics or when awards like these produce nominations at all ( ... )
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You really like my fics? Why? *giggles* sorry, bad habit.
It can get hard when you feel like it's not appreciated. It's suddenly like 'Why both posting it at all?' I don't know... I'm still trying to get my head around it myself.
Last year I got no nominations! Well, that's cause I hadn't written anything haha. And this year, well...I don't know... I kinda... I feel like I'm not nominated for my real fics, you know? I mean, yeah, I'm glad penis talk got a nom, its nice actually cause I don't find it funny, but... it's not something with real depth and... I'm ranting again :S
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I think everyone (even the great Ali obviously!) have insecurities about their fics. And who wouldn't! Putting something you've spent a lot of time and energy on out into the wide world for all to deride takes balls.I admire the people who post regularly, even if I don't always like their fics.
I think when people stop commenting, it's a sign that you've grown stale and you need a change of plot/character/etcetc. I'm glad some people see that and take action.
And for what it's worth, I love your fics and I miss them. There are nowhere near enough BC slash around.
*smooches*
mmmm sourav
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Ali is insecure about her fics, that I know. But you see the response she gets and you realise you popular and loved her fics are. It indicates a real talent. When you don't get that for your own fics, the feeling of insecurity kind of just gets instilled and stays.
As for you liking my fics ... thank you darling. But clearly there are very few like you around. I can't stop writing but I think from now own they will be more for my own consumptions than anyone else's. Perhaps thats the way it should have been all along.
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