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My fookin' scanner won't work, stupid computer, it's all like "I can't recognize that there's a scanner plugged into me" and I'm like, "IT'S RIGHT THERE, DUMBASS." I was going to scan a watercolor self portrait I did tonight entitled "Self-Absorbtrait" but I can't scan it so that's a moot point. It came out okay considering I haven't done anything remotely "realistic" in terms of art in a really long time.
That said, I am up really late painting instead of sleeping. I slept really late today (till 2 PM) and skipped the one obligation I had to do nothing instead. It's always a really bad idea for me to stay up really late by myself because I feel really terribly lonely at this hour. I've been trying to not stay up super late, but I never get enough sleep, so today I slept late, and now I can't sleep yet. It's really stupid, goddamnit brain. It causes me to have imaginary conversations in my head with an embodiment of my general attraction to the opposite sex, housed in whomever I have a crush on. And the embodiment is always rational and reasonable but also a total dick.
I went out for a cigarette a little bit earlier and actually consciously decided to try to think about all the work I have to do because it was actually less depressing than thinking about how lonely I get really late at night/early in the morning.
Also my room is getting pretty messy and I don't want to clean it up.
I'm excited to go home tomorrow for fall break. It's lame that we only get two days off, but hey, two days off! Sweet (false enthusiasm, seriously, two days off is lame and I wish it were a week)!
I have work at noon tomorrow until 3ish when I drive Anna to the train station. Woo! I can't wait to get in the car to drive home, driving is so nice.
I think I'm gonna actually try to plug in my Super Nintendo and little TV, just to ensure that I waste A LOT of time playing video games instead of doing work or what I should actually do which is sleep.
PS, Why did EVERYONE on campus go to bed already? What happened to not having classes Friday making Thursday the new Friday?
That said, I am up really late painting instead of sleeping. I slept really late today (till 2 PM) and skipped the one obligation I had to do nothing instead. It's always a really bad idea for me to stay up really late by myself because I feel really terribly lonely at this hour. I've been trying to not stay up super late, but I never get enough sleep, so today I slept late, and now I can't sleep yet. It's really stupid, goddamnit brain. It causes me to have imaginary conversations in my head with an embodiment of my general attraction to the opposite sex, housed in whomever I have a crush on. And the embodiment is always rational and reasonable but also a total dick.
I went out for a cigarette a little bit earlier and actually consciously decided to try to think about all the work I have to do because it was actually less depressing than thinking about how lonely I get really late at night/early in the morning.
Also my room is getting pretty messy and I don't want to clean it up.
I'm excited to go home tomorrow for fall break. It's lame that we only get two days off, but hey, two days off! Sweet (false enthusiasm, seriously, two days off is lame and I wish it were a week)!
I have work at noon tomorrow until 3ish when I drive Anna to the train station. Woo! I can't wait to get in the car to drive home, driving is so nice.
I think I'm gonna actually try to plug in my Super Nintendo and little TV, just to ensure that I waste A LOT of time playing video games instead of doing work or what I should actually do which is sleep.
PS, Why did EVERYONE on campus go to bed already? What happened to not having classes Friday making Thursday the new Friday?