Comments | finnbarr: I'm only human when I'm alone..

finnbarr

I'm only human when I'm alone..

Aug 03, 2005 02:47

I don't know to laugh or cry.. nobody would know if anything happened to me for so long. Hell, it's been admitted already by people that they wouldn't hear about it. Let alone, most everyone wouldn't give a fuck or care too much. And, yeah, I'd bet my ass that it includes people that read this, as well. I could probably count the friends I have ( Read more... )

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"A Healing in this Night" by Kathy Mar anonymous August 3 2005, 20:21:26 UTC

There are songs that never ask you anything ( ... )

Re: "A Healing in this Night" by Kathy Mar finnbarr August 4 2005, 03:38:08 UTC

Watch as you're the only person to respond to this. Prolly a 50/50 chance, given the inverse rate of comments to the intensity of the post.

Which, begs the question. Who are you?

anonymousanna August 7 2005, 01:48:28 UTC

That something, that feeling, thats faith in God. you can't feel Gods love. now no one preace to me. but personally from my life experiences, thats what fills that missing feeling inside me, my faith in God. And theres absolutely no substitute.

finnbarr August 7 2005, 03:18:10 UTC

I think something got lost along the lines. I have no faith, let alone in God. Any hope is idle and without any belief or expectations that it will actually work. It's akin to a suicidal charge, and knowing that going in. There may be some wish inside that something would stop the pain at the end, though you know it's futile, but regardless of what happens, you go onward. Faith is absent.

Also, I believe we're thinking different forms of emptiness. Internal vs. external.

anonymousanna August 7 2005, 01:57:07 UTC

Alsoooo, nobody would know because you don't keep any kind of regular contact with anyone. I would know if you had the contact with me that you used to. but seemingly you havn't talked to me or seen me or... anything in such a long time. and if you EVER needed ANYTHING from me i'll always be here for you. even if its just a shoulder to lean on or someone to beat up or someone to talk to. and that sounds corny and rehearsed, but i honestly mean it. i don't say things i don't mean, i can't, its not in my peronality. i care about you and if you ever think diffrently, call me and i'll reassure you. I'll be here, but you can't just expect me to know whenever i need to be by your side, you have to let me know, and i will be by your side as soon as i can be.

finnbarr August 7 2005, 03:29:17 UTC

Nah, I don't buy that. It's not as though I've spent my whole life telling people to fuck off and die, and keeping them as far off as possible. The reason I am how I am, is the same reason anyone is how they ever are. They base everything off of they familiar, and their own experiences ( ... )

elf_da August 27 2005, 20:36:11 UTC

::holds you::
I'm sorry I have to be so far away, but I am with you in spirit.

My tattoos anchor me and keep me from that void of which you speak. I was lost in my own for a long time. Drowning, falling, crying, reaching, and surrounded by unfamiliar faces I've known for years. My tattoos remind me of my strength, that there are people who care, and that wherever I am is wherever I need to be. They are the signposts on the map of life that is my skin. my flesh. My self.

I cannot say how you will escape your sorrow, but know that I am here, and my thoughts turn toward you often, and hopefully that will help. I know I am not the person you seek, but I can only hope to help. ::kisses you on the forehead and smiles quietly::