RIP PopPop
s0 today was one year that he hasnt been with us... and my grammy didnt even remeber and i know its not her fault she can hardly remember anything anymore but it kills me to know that he is truly dead and she is dead inside since then...BROKEN HEART CAN KILL
i feel like a bad grand daughter because it wasnt untill half way through my day did i remember that it was TODAY and i havent even cried over it i can cry instead i have been nothing but in a bad mood and sad about other shit i've woken up to realize today and i dont know anymore i mean i was gigglely and smilely today but then i just remember things or see things that make me remember and i get sad and bitchy and im being mean and i know today of all days my mom doesnt need it but i just cant seem to help myself i mean i was trying my hardest not to be mean or fight with lindsey all day today but everytime i would try something messed me up and i just couldnt help it
i just feel real bad for how i've been actting and i really just want to go back to being old happy smilely cheerful layna but i cant seem to find the thing to brighten my day so that i can be that way
i've lost my magic and i too clueless to find a way to bring it back
looking at all the bull shit life is makes me wonder why just why about everything why do good things happen to those who always get the luck and why do people look at life so negitively and why are some people so chipper and what maks others so sad and angry about the way their life is and why dose the dealer always seem to deal me a shitty hand of cards when there is a great one in the deck just with in arms reach... did i do something wrong to piss him off and if so what did i do so that i can find out how to make it better and learn from my mistakes
i feel like a bad grand daughter because it wasnt untill half way through my day did i remember that it was TODAY and i havent even cried over it i can cry instead i have been nothing but in a bad mood and sad about other shit i've woken up to realize today and i dont know anymore i mean i was gigglely and smilely today but then i just remember things or see things that make me remember and i get sad and bitchy and im being mean and i know today of all days my mom doesnt need it but i just cant seem to help myself i mean i was trying my hardest not to be mean or fight with lindsey all day today but everytime i would try something messed me up and i just couldnt help it
i just feel real bad for how i've been actting and i really just want to go back to being old happy smilely cheerful layna but i cant seem to find the thing to brighten my day so that i can be that way
i've lost my magic and i too clueless to find a way to bring it back
looking at all the bull shit life is makes me wonder why just why about everything why do good things happen to those who always get the luck and why do people look at life so negitively and why are some people so chipper and what maks others so sad and angry about the way their life is and why dose the dealer always seem to deal me a shitty hand of cards when there is a great one in the deck just with in arms reach... did i do something wrong to piss him off and if so what did i do so that i can find out how to make it better and learn from my mistakes