used confused && abused!
right now i'm in a real good mood... honestly i just posted this great post on myspace!! funny pics and i love those peeps but other then that i gots to get shit off my chest!
So this is my boy statas update::
I have only ever been with one person!
and it IS STAYING that way for a while!
but somehow GUYS... no i'm sorry PIN HEADS seem to think that because they heard i'v lost my V-card that i'm easy
NO WAY IN HELL WILL I EVER BE EASY!
i think your truly insane to think that
so if i take you to prom... DONT BUY CONDOMS after
i wont ever give it up on the first date or the same day you get a first kiss
oh and just because i might be FWB with you my limmits still stand... I ONLY KISS
so i guess i'm feeling like shit is because.... well on aug. 26 me and will,, will be over for a year and since then i have only really REALLY really liked one person (Joey) i mean i did like others but those have all turned out to hurt me deeply since i gave them a chance
there was this guy Drew that manda set me up with... well we "liked" each other and started hanging out more and then he asked me out... i asked him to prom n then we broke up o i didnt go with him and was left to find someone else who i thought was an amazing date untill all the little dirty secrets came out... anyway a long time after we dated drew decideds to tell me the real reason why he ever dated me was because he thought i would be a nice piece of ASS...
The prom dat-> I was told this one kid would be really good for me so i took him to prom and now that things have gone wrong and we dont work well ((i guess you could say))... i find out that he thought i was ganna give it up on something that wasnt even really ment to be a first date but it did end up as a first date... he tried and got turned down and i guess i could say i feel bad for him because he even took me with him to the beach but nothing happened ((sexually)) down there that i can only guess was what he was planing for and to tell you the truth if i was writin this a week ago that would have never came out of my mouth but hell when secrets are told people think of you differently! i lost any hope that hes a good guy
Then there was Joey who i was with ((not bf/gf but just hooking up with)) for 4months right after Will and then we stoped bc there was a girl he wanted to ask out... so anyway maybe a month or 2 ago he comes to me asking for a second chance promising he wont make ma a stupid foolish girl and that i wont get hurt... well i should have none that those promises dont really stick too well those are things no on can promise!
Anyway he tells ALL our friends he is ganna ask me out at my sisters party and that day i invited over one of the girls i dance with at dance class and well with in 5mins of talking to her i was no longer the one he wanted instead he decideds to use me for i dont know 3weeks after the party untill i get him her number to buy the pool table off her and i find out he wants to ask her out and only wants friends with me and that the other night wasnt anything big in his mind it was just him showing me all the emotions and feling i'v shown and given to him being returnd so that i could feel good and then find out it was all a lie... anyways me n Joey are just friends and i plan to stay JUST FRIENDS with him forever and on!
next and last bad thing bout my guy crap that i feel like talking bout the one that bugs me the most is this kid dave... I havent kissed him and really talked to him in the LOOOONGEST time out of the blue i get a text from him asking me if i still liked him i said were friends n i was like why n he was like bc i want to be Friends with beniffits... i was like ahhhh ummm we'll see... not really planing on it at all to tell ya the truth... anyway im hanging out with his brother n friends... dave text me come up stairs im watching wedding crashers so yeah i went up stairs i knew he was ganna try something but i was like hell its a good movie so i go up there and when he put his hand on my leg leans in and goes to kiss me as he moves his hand up my leg i flipped i was like what do you think your doing what are you crazi and he was like well i heard what you did with that kid will and i was like ya and i was also dating/with him for like forever there is a big differece... oh yeah and also i love will not him not anyone eles!
so then today i text dave ahh yeah things with me n u arent ganna happen not at all ever... and he was like y how far will you go with me and i was like why do u think im easy you have known me for like forever what would make you think that shit bout me and he was like i dont think you are and i was like yeah you know from experience im not bc i wouldnt let you and he was like nah i never thought u were but whatever... ok bull shit bc u dont ask a girl how far shell go with you and try shit on her if you dont think that bout her
i hate that shit!
I WANT EVERYONE READING TO KNOW I'M NOT EASY NOR WILL I EVER BE AND HONESTLY I DONE EVER PLAN ON HAVING SEX WITH SOMEONE UNLESS I LOVE THEM OR FEEL SO STRONG ABOUT THEM THAT I FEEL LIKE IT IS OK TO HAVE SEX BUT I DOUT I WILL EVER FEEL THAT WAY AND NOT BE IN LOVE
0O0H AND ALSO I HIGHLY DOUT I'LL EVER FIND LOVE AGAIN SO IM FINE WITH NEVER HAVING SEX AGAIN.... IT DOESNT SEEM TO BUG ME SO FAR...
ASS HOLES!
besides since will guys only date//whatever me because they think im easy but they are all SHIT OUT OF LUCK because they sure as hell have me confused with someone else...
oh yeah and the only guy i really really really like since him didnt think i was easy but he also doesnt think im good enough for him so its the same feeling of shame//gross dissapointment!
So this is my boy statas update::
I have only ever been with one person!
and it IS STAYING that way for a while!
but somehow GUYS... no i'm sorry PIN HEADS seem to think that because they heard i'v lost my V-card that i'm easy
NO WAY IN HELL WILL I EVER BE EASY!
i think your truly insane to think that
so if i take you to prom... DONT BUY CONDOMS after
i wont ever give it up on the first date or the same day you get a first kiss
oh and just because i might be FWB with you my limmits still stand... I ONLY KISS
so i guess i'm feeling like shit is because.... well on aug. 26 me and will,, will be over for a year and since then i have only really REALLY really liked one person (Joey) i mean i did like others but those have all turned out to hurt me deeply since i gave them a chance
there was this guy Drew that manda set me up with... well we "liked" each other and started hanging out more and then he asked me out... i asked him to prom n then we broke up o i didnt go with him and was left to find someone else who i thought was an amazing date untill all the little dirty secrets came out... anyway a long time after we dated drew decideds to tell me the real reason why he ever dated me was because he thought i would be a nice piece of ASS...
The prom dat-> I was told this one kid would be really good for me so i took him to prom and now that things have gone wrong and we dont work well ((i guess you could say))... i find out that he thought i was ganna give it up on something that wasnt even really ment to be a first date but it did end up as a first date... he tried and got turned down and i guess i could say i feel bad for him because he even took me with him to the beach but nothing happened ((sexually)) down there that i can only guess was what he was planing for and to tell you the truth if i was writin this a week ago that would have never came out of my mouth but hell when secrets are told people think of you differently! i lost any hope that hes a good guy
Then there was Joey who i was with ((not bf/gf but just hooking up with)) for 4months right after Will and then we stoped bc there was a girl he wanted to ask out... so anyway maybe a month or 2 ago he comes to me asking for a second chance promising he wont make ma a stupid foolish girl and that i wont get hurt... well i should have none that those promises dont really stick too well those are things no on can promise!
Anyway he tells ALL our friends he is ganna ask me out at my sisters party and that day i invited over one of the girls i dance with at dance class and well with in 5mins of talking to her i was no longer the one he wanted instead he decideds to use me for i dont know 3weeks after the party untill i get him her number to buy the pool table off her and i find out he wants to ask her out and only wants friends with me and that the other night wasnt anything big in his mind it was just him showing me all the emotions and feling i'v shown and given to him being returnd so that i could feel good and then find out it was all a lie... anyways me n Joey are just friends and i plan to stay JUST FRIENDS with him forever and on!
next and last bad thing bout my guy crap that i feel like talking bout the one that bugs me the most is this kid dave... I havent kissed him and really talked to him in the LOOOONGEST time out of the blue i get a text from him asking me if i still liked him i said were friends n i was like why n he was like bc i want to be Friends with beniffits... i was like ahhhh ummm we'll see... not really planing on it at all to tell ya the truth... anyway im hanging out with his brother n friends... dave text me come up stairs im watching wedding crashers so yeah i went up stairs i knew he was ganna try something but i was like hell its a good movie so i go up there and when he put his hand on my leg leans in and goes to kiss me as he moves his hand up my leg i flipped i was like what do you think your doing what are you crazi and he was like well i heard what you did with that kid will and i was like ya and i was also dating/with him for like forever there is a big differece... oh yeah and also i love will not him not anyone eles!
so then today i text dave ahh yeah things with me n u arent ganna happen not at all ever... and he was like y how far will you go with me and i was like why do u think im easy you have known me for like forever what would make you think that shit bout me and he was like i dont think you are and i was like yeah you know from experience im not bc i wouldnt let you and he was like nah i never thought u were but whatever... ok bull shit bc u dont ask a girl how far shell go with you and try shit on her if you dont think that bout her
i hate that shit!
I WANT EVERYONE READING TO KNOW I'M NOT EASY NOR WILL I EVER BE AND HONESTLY I DONE EVER PLAN ON HAVING SEX WITH SOMEONE UNLESS I LOVE THEM OR FEEL SO STRONG ABOUT THEM THAT I FEEL LIKE IT IS OK TO HAVE SEX BUT I DOUT I WILL EVER FEEL THAT WAY AND NOT BE IN LOVE
0O0H AND ALSO I HIGHLY DOUT I'LL EVER FIND LOVE AGAIN SO IM FINE WITH NEVER HAVING SEX AGAIN.... IT DOESNT SEEM TO BUG ME SO FAR...
ASS HOLES!
besides since will guys only date//whatever me because they think im easy but they are all SHIT OUT OF LUCK because they sure as hell have me confused with someone else...
oh yeah and the only guy i really really really like since him didnt think i was easy but he also doesnt think im good enough for him so its the same feeling of shame//gross dissapointment!