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I’ve been thinking about celibacy lately. Not really celibacy, but kind of. I think I fall in love too easily; but I want to know if I really do just fall in love quick or if I just love sex. I’ve had a fairly long term relationship with someone who I didn’t fool around with a lot and it was way too easy to get over her, does that say something about me? Lately I’ve had no problem sleeping with someone that I’ve just met and by the next day I feel like shit because of it. I just finished a book that talks about how I’ve been feeling. There’s good and bad food just like good and bad sex, but junk food does just about as much good for your body as junk sex does for your mind or soul. It tastes/feels good but what does it do for you in the long run? I want to wait to have sex with someone until I feel even the faintest bit of love for them, making it more than junk sex. I want more than instant gratification that leaves me felling nothing afterward, I think. The major conflict with this for me is that I don’t want any more long term relationships for a while. I want to go out and fuck up and not worry. So maybe this will have to wait for now. I have a date with a girl that I met on the boat when we get back and we have a lot in common and never run out of things to talk about and it seems promising so maybe I’ll try it with her. She’s 2 inches taller than me and all legs, and I’m such a sucker for legs. She could have been a model with a body like hers, so this will be a good test of my will power too. What does everyone else think about it? I want to hear other people’s feedback on it but almost everyone here would just call me a fag and tell me I'll continue to be a fag until a fuck a number of girls that they feel a heterosexual should have fucked by the age of 20. Everyone who wouldn't say that is still a macho fuck nut and wouldn't understand what I'm trying to say. We’re all degenerates here, but that will be a different post.
Still Life with Woodpecker by Tom Robbins
It’s pretty good.
Still Life with Woodpecker by Tom Robbins
It’s pretty good.