Do you ever just get over everything?
Ok now for my "whats goin on atm" post. If I go all weird on your asses I'm sorry.
But do you ever feel like there's no point to anything you do? Like you put all this effort into something but you don't get anything out of it, but it's not just one thing, it's everything. Well that's how I feel now. There's so much going through my head atm, I just feel like moving to Guatemala or summat and getting away from everything. But contradicting that, I dont want to be alone, but I've been feeling that a lot lately anyway. Maybe it's seeing Tarni again, I dunno *sigh*. I dont want her back (which Im really proud to be able to say cos i really do mean it) I just really miss having someone there y'know. I have a shitload of homework to do which I havent even started, and my house is an absolute shitheap atm cos we're getting new carpet, the contents of my room are all over my house. Dill got the battle results back, we came 8th. Out of 12. I know we went shit as compared to our usual standard, I'm still disappointed. I havent surfed for over a month, and for those of you that know me well you'll know that is extrememly strange for me, I havent gone this long without surfing since i broke my collarbone.
Hmm I have all this stuff I wanna get out...and even though this is a 'journal' I dont feel comfortable putting my feelings out there for everyone to see, so I think I'll leave it there hey. Dont come trying to council me either :P I'll get over it, I always do eventually. Man I'm a little bitch ay, having a cry on LJ *slaps self on face*
On a lighter note, aside from the things that made me feel like this lastnight, Trandres party was sick. They had a bouncer! He was seriously the biggest mofo i have ever seen. I was pretty tipsy, and i put his jacket on and went up to him and grabbed his arm and said in a deep voice 'where's your invite mate'. He didnt find it very funny lol, he growled 'take my jacket off now'...so i did and ran away. I'm thankful I'm still alive. Yeah nothing much else to report on, if I remember something I'll add it later. Cya dudes.
But do you ever feel like there's no point to anything you do? Like you put all this effort into something but you don't get anything out of it, but it's not just one thing, it's everything. Well that's how I feel now. There's so much going through my head atm, I just feel like moving to Guatemala or summat and getting away from everything. But contradicting that, I dont want to be alone, but I've been feeling that a lot lately anyway. Maybe it's seeing Tarni again, I dunno *sigh*. I dont want her back (which Im really proud to be able to say cos i really do mean it) I just really miss having someone there y'know. I have a shitload of homework to do which I havent even started, and my house is an absolute shitheap atm cos we're getting new carpet, the contents of my room are all over my house. Dill got the battle results back, we came 8th. Out of 12. I know we went shit as compared to our usual standard, I'm still disappointed. I havent surfed for over a month, and for those of you that know me well you'll know that is extrememly strange for me, I havent gone this long without surfing since i broke my collarbone.
Hmm I have all this stuff I wanna get out...and even though this is a 'journal' I dont feel comfortable putting my feelings out there for everyone to see, so I think I'll leave it there hey. Dont come trying to council me either :P I'll get over it, I always do eventually. Man I'm a little bitch ay, having a cry on LJ *slaps self on face*
On a lighter note, aside from the things that made me feel like this lastnight, Trandres party was sick. They had a bouncer! He was seriously the biggest mofo i have ever seen. I was pretty tipsy, and i put his jacket on and went up to him and grabbed his arm and said in a deep voice 'where's your invite mate'. He didnt find it very funny lol, he growled 'take my jacket off now'...so i did and ran away. I'm thankful I'm still alive. Yeah nothing much else to report on, if I remember something I'll add it later. Cya dudes.