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OK im swear im gonna force myself to write this. Because I really should I guess.. Anywho depressing sorta sounding post coming up but I really need to at least write some stuff about health that is going on lately. Since well I havnt written much about it in over a year. Kinda vague but here I go...
Doctors have been trying to start me on organ transplant stuff for a bit now. Cellcept I guess.. Ive been refusing it for now. Multiple things have been getting worse. Im getting worried about kidneys too obviously... For the past couple of years my tests keep getting worse and doctors still dont have a good answer for it. I guess for now ive been testing positive for that diffuse/systmatic scerloderma or whatever. And thats why my body is shutting down all over the place for awhile now I guess... So the cellcept is to try to slow down my body from killing it self.. but sounds like I would obviously be on it forever.... Not to excited about it, so for the timing being just rejecting it.
For the low T. Doctors tried giving me clomid, but my estrogen is also rising for some reason. I guess all my hormones are outta wack right now. So I stopped. As well honestly my dick got realyl sensitive to the point of even water touching it was messing just kinda killing it lol. Hard to explain.. I didnt give the clomid a long chance at teh end of the day. Reading about it I guess it can happen and generally its usuallly given with something like arimidex to stop your estorgen from getting out of control while on it. I asked the doctors if they could then give me a perscirption for that as well, but they wanted to see me in person more to do that. But its like umm I dont live in Ohio(which I had gotten it orginally from at the cleveland clinic)... Meh its a big kinda mess right now... They tried giving me gel but im hestitant to take it cuz I guess i cant touch anyone for awhile... The shots are cheaper but there can be bigger hills in valleys if you dont get a shot of it everyweek. And a lot of doctors only want to give it every 2 weeks... Im gonna see some other doctors and hopefully i can try the clomid out again but get some arimidex while on it as well. As im also afraid of course as with the others there is a bigger chance that it could shut off all my natural prodcution period...
Docs still cant find a good reason why it happened as well... If anythign tis annyoing cuz they make me do the blood tests multiple times.. I keep getting bullshit that tehy must be wrong. And that there is no way someone in my shape could have that low of levels.. Its like they seriously dont get when I am not sick I am trying to work out and just stay as healthy as I can.... Anyway yea still not sure why this happened. It started getting lower around my blood clot.. but also thinking I did have that epydmitis problem. Maybe it fucked up my nut. And tahts why im lower now.. Who knows.. Of course doctors also said it could be just bacuse my whole body is shutting down..
Of course I also have that tumor so who knows lol....
As for sex or desire per say.. Obviously that has been pretty low.. Ive tried lots of herb sorta stuff I have noticed like boners at night I guess more? but desire wise nope...
They actually are giving me viagra lol 3 times a day... Not for that kinda thing but to help my circulation since im healing really badly right now.. Of course side effect being boners... I do get some headaches from it though, light headed sorta feeling and sometimes a stuff nose.. I will say though I do get biggeron them like before I got sick.. If people recall when I took that lyrica years ago it seriously fucked my dick.. Well who knows maybe sometime after that I dont really get as big as I use to get. Like 6 inchs or something.. but when I took the viagra ive been ablet o get bigger again probablty not quite 7 inchs. Which I guess felt good lol? Cuz it does always suck i just dont get as big as I use to get for some reason.. Honestly id like to try cialis to see if that works better maybe less headahces or somethign...
Of course even with this generally my desire iss till low. Again im sure a life time of easy access doesnt help. So im just ambivelent towards most sitautions/girls i guess...
Dunno what to say about my tumor its still there... blah.. just letting it roll for now...
Work otu wise etc... pretty bad... Im still having trouble losing weight and have been super cracky snappy poppy all over the place... I still look pretty buff obviously... I do want to get a super awesome ripped 6 pack.. but I feel like im stuck iwth a 4 pack.. I know it sounds petty but whatever I guess.... I suppose at the end of the day with my decaying health ive acheived a lot.. It just feels like im missing more days where I cant doa nythign and its frustrating.
Meh I wrote this a few weeks ago and still havnt written anything past that so ill just put what i have up for now....
Doctors have been trying to start me on organ transplant stuff for a bit now. Cellcept I guess.. Ive been refusing it for now. Multiple things have been getting worse. Im getting worried about kidneys too obviously... For the past couple of years my tests keep getting worse and doctors still dont have a good answer for it. I guess for now ive been testing positive for that diffuse/systmatic scerloderma or whatever. And thats why my body is shutting down all over the place for awhile now I guess... So the cellcept is to try to slow down my body from killing it self.. but sounds like I would obviously be on it forever.... Not to excited about it, so for the timing being just rejecting it.
For the low T. Doctors tried giving me clomid, but my estrogen is also rising for some reason. I guess all my hormones are outta wack right now. So I stopped. As well honestly my dick got realyl sensitive to the point of even water touching it was messing just kinda killing it lol. Hard to explain.. I didnt give the clomid a long chance at teh end of the day. Reading about it I guess it can happen and generally its usuallly given with something like arimidex to stop your estorgen from getting out of control while on it. I asked the doctors if they could then give me a perscirption for that as well, but they wanted to see me in person more to do that. But its like umm I dont live in Ohio(which I had gotten it orginally from at the cleveland clinic)... Meh its a big kinda mess right now... They tried giving me gel but im hestitant to take it cuz I guess i cant touch anyone for awhile... The shots are cheaper but there can be bigger hills in valleys if you dont get a shot of it everyweek. And a lot of doctors only want to give it every 2 weeks... Im gonna see some other doctors and hopefully i can try the clomid out again but get some arimidex while on it as well. As im also afraid of course as with the others there is a bigger chance that it could shut off all my natural prodcution period...
Docs still cant find a good reason why it happened as well... If anythign tis annyoing cuz they make me do the blood tests multiple times.. I keep getting bullshit that tehy must be wrong. And that there is no way someone in my shape could have that low of levels.. Its like they seriously dont get when I am not sick I am trying to work out and just stay as healthy as I can.... Anyway yea still not sure why this happened. It started getting lower around my blood clot.. but also thinking I did have that epydmitis problem. Maybe it fucked up my nut. And tahts why im lower now.. Who knows.. Of course doctors also said it could be just bacuse my whole body is shutting down..
Of course I also have that tumor so who knows lol....
As for sex or desire per say.. Obviously that has been pretty low.. Ive tried lots of herb sorta stuff I have noticed like boners at night I guess more? but desire wise nope...
They actually are giving me viagra lol 3 times a day... Not for that kinda thing but to help my circulation since im healing really badly right now.. Of course side effect being boners... I do get some headaches from it though, light headed sorta feeling and sometimes a stuff nose.. I will say though I do get biggeron them like before I got sick.. If people recall when I took that lyrica years ago it seriously fucked my dick.. Well who knows maybe sometime after that I dont really get as big as I use to get. Like 6 inchs or something.. but when I took the viagra ive been ablet o get bigger again probablty not quite 7 inchs. Which I guess felt good lol? Cuz it does always suck i just dont get as big as I use to get for some reason.. Honestly id like to try cialis to see if that works better maybe less headahces or somethign...
Of course even with this generally my desire iss till low. Again im sure a life time of easy access doesnt help. So im just ambivelent towards most sitautions/girls i guess...
Dunno what to say about my tumor its still there... blah.. just letting it roll for now...
Work otu wise etc... pretty bad... Im still having trouble losing weight and have been super cracky snappy poppy all over the place... I still look pretty buff obviously... I do want to get a super awesome ripped 6 pack.. but I feel like im stuck iwth a 4 pack.. I know it sounds petty but whatever I guess.... I suppose at the end of the day with my decaying health ive acheived a lot.. It just feels like im missing more days where I cant doa nythign and its frustrating.
Meh I wrote this a few weeks ago and still havnt written anything past that so ill just put what i have up for now....