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It's my day off...and my only day to get anything done yet I'm sitting here alone at my aunts house while they're all out having fun. Why?...so I can watch the dog. Not that I mind doing stuff for them...but there's two reason I'm not so happy about it today. One: I had shit to do today and I put it all aside to come sit here and now it's never going to get done until next weekend because tomorrow I have to come back here again all day. And I also had plans this afternoon to go out with Fallon, Mary & Angela for Angelas birthday. Reason two: I'm completely sick of always being the one left behind to do all the dirty work while everyone else goes off and has fun. I'm like the family slave. The only time anybody ever talks to me is when they want me to do something for them. " Kassi can you do this? Kassi can you go get this? Kassi can you watch the dogs?" Kassi can you take Andrew to school? Kassi can you vaccum?" When everyone goes somewhere I'm never invited. The only invitation I get is to watch the house or the dogs or to help them do something. Even "Nana" only calls me when she wants me to do something like paint, or clean, or drive with her somewhere. And I don't mind helping people out but this is a constant thing and I'm always left out of things, I'm always the one bailing everyone out so they can go have their fun and I'm quite tired of it. Sure, they do me favors like when I take off work they pay me. But I don't ask them to. And it would be a differant story if this was a once in awhile thing and I still felt like I was a part of their family instead of their servant. But I guess since I'm not little and cute anymore I'm not good enough to be that. Now I'm just the person that runs their office and helps them out whenever they want.
Whatever. I'm over it. I should have known a long time ago that that would happen. I don't belong anywhere I guess.
The best thing for me to do is pack up and move and get everyone out of my life so I can start living my own life and stop putting it on hold for everyone else. Which is what I plan to do as soon as I figure out how and when.
Other than feeling like shit all the time... I got a new cell phone and pretty much wiped out my home phone so anyone that needs to reach me can call me on my new phone 702-423-5828 .
Tonight I have to go down to Nellis AFB to meet the US Vets guys and go bowling with them. I never should have volunteered for that stupid thing. When I volunterred for it I wasn't very busy and I had the time to do it but right after I volunteered all of a sudden I got super busy and now I can never find the time to take care of my own shit. My house has been a disaster for the past two weeks and I can't find the time to clean it properly. I have like 2 hours to myself all week becuase I'm constantly doing crap and when I do have the time during the week I have to sleep becuase I have to work the next day.
Going insane. But on the bright side... One more week until April 1st and then only 16 more days till Daniel comes home. That will be a big relief. And also when he's home he doesn't let people take advantage of me so I'm not so tied down to things as I am when he's gone. He kind of puts my foot down for me...if you know what I mean. I should do it myself..but I haven't really worked up the guts to tell people to go fuck themselves yet. I feel the day coming quite soon though.
Whatever. I'm over it. I should have known a long time ago that that would happen. I don't belong anywhere I guess.
The best thing for me to do is pack up and move and get everyone out of my life so I can start living my own life and stop putting it on hold for everyone else. Which is what I plan to do as soon as I figure out how and when.
Other than feeling like shit all the time... I got a new cell phone and pretty much wiped out my home phone so anyone that needs to reach me can call me on my new phone 702-423-5828 .
Tonight I have to go down to Nellis AFB to meet the US Vets guys and go bowling with them. I never should have volunteered for that stupid thing. When I volunterred for it I wasn't very busy and I had the time to do it but right after I volunteered all of a sudden I got super busy and now I can never find the time to take care of my own shit. My house has been a disaster for the past two weeks and I can't find the time to clean it properly. I have like 2 hours to myself all week becuase I'm constantly doing crap and when I do have the time during the week I have to sleep becuase I have to work the next day.
Going insane. But on the bright side... One more week until April 1st and then only 16 more days till Daniel comes home. That will be a big relief. And also when he's home he doesn't let people take advantage of me so I'm not so tied down to things as I am when he's gone. He kind of puts my foot down for me...if you know what I mean. I should do it myself..but I haven't really worked up the guts to tell people to go fuck themselves yet. I feel the day coming quite soon though.