medicine is stupid.
why can't it cure people WITHOUT surgery?????
i had a really good day. i got new running shoes (thank goodness my sister saved me from the $140 pair, the problem with knowledgable places is that they sell the quality and don't mention the price, the $90 i paid was plenty, thanks!) and then spend a bit of money at victoria's secret, but i got a lot of stuff and if it wasn't on sale it would have cost me at least $200 instead of $60 so i'm not too upset. finally went to the diner in adams morgan, and resisted buying lots of chocolate and cookies at union station because i have three weeks until i was going to see aaron, and was determined to be in shape by then, and then i saw shrek2 with my parents with no blatant bickering.
oh wait, did i say three weeks? i came home and found out he's having his surgery in a couple weeks, as soon as they can schedule it. he'd thought they would wait til december but decided it was better to do it now. so we're both really upset because that cancels both of our visits we had planned. and i won't know basically until right before the surgery if i have a job or not, to know whether or not i'll be able to go out there (the flight i had booked already for the weekend of the 9th was just in case i didn't have to start working yet/didn't get the job). so i'm trying to find flights out there next weekend, and they're all insanely expensive and i'm still unemployed. i hate to do this but i think i'm either going to a)cry and lay a guilt trip on my parents tomorrow to loan me $300, or b) go to the bank and see if i can get my $500 limit student credit card converted to a real limit. i really just don't know what to do. he wants me to be out there before his surgery so we can have a real visit, but i can't plan anything because stupid bcp won't let me know for two weeks if they're hiring me, and i want to be there for it just to be there for him, and afterwards to cheer him up and distract him from the pain. i know i can't plan anything so i should just stop trying, but i can't deal with that. i read the last chapter of a book first, i watch the last few scenes of a dvd first or bug people around me to tell me what happens. i don't like uncertainty, especially about important things like this. can i be there for him? do i have a job? BLECH. why can't science just fix itself so he doesn't have to go through it????????? i have no one to be mad at for any of this, so i'm choosing to be mad at the medical field in general, i think that's perfectly rational. right.
i had a really good day. i got new running shoes (thank goodness my sister saved me from the $140 pair, the problem with knowledgable places is that they sell the quality and don't mention the price, the $90 i paid was plenty, thanks!) and then spend a bit of money at victoria's secret, but i got a lot of stuff and if it wasn't on sale it would have cost me at least $200 instead of $60 so i'm not too upset. finally went to the diner in adams morgan, and resisted buying lots of chocolate and cookies at union station because i have three weeks until i was going to see aaron, and was determined to be in shape by then, and then i saw shrek2 with my parents with no blatant bickering.
oh wait, did i say three weeks? i came home and found out he's having his surgery in a couple weeks, as soon as they can schedule it. he'd thought they would wait til december but decided it was better to do it now. so we're both really upset because that cancels both of our visits we had planned. and i won't know basically until right before the surgery if i have a job or not, to know whether or not i'll be able to go out there (the flight i had booked already for the weekend of the 9th was just in case i didn't have to start working yet/didn't get the job). so i'm trying to find flights out there next weekend, and they're all insanely expensive and i'm still unemployed. i hate to do this but i think i'm either going to a)cry and lay a guilt trip on my parents tomorrow to loan me $300, or b) go to the bank and see if i can get my $500 limit student credit card converted to a real limit. i really just don't know what to do. he wants me to be out there before his surgery so we can have a real visit, but i can't plan anything because stupid bcp won't let me know for two weeks if they're hiring me, and i want to be there for it just to be there for him, and afterwards to cheer him up and distract him from the pain. i know i can't plan anything so i should just stop trying, but i can't deal with that. i read the last chapter of a book first, i watch the last few scenes of a dvd first or bug people around me to tell me what happens. i don't like uncertainty, especially about important things like this. can i be there for him? do i have a job? BLECH. why can't science just fix itself so he doesn't have to go through it????????? i have no one to be mad at for any of this, so i'm choosing to be mad at the medical field in general, i think that's perfectly rational. right.