pain
my back has been wracked with pain this morning. it is as though someone has taken my entire lower back and tied it in knots, and is tugging both ends to tighten it. it hurts like the dickens, yo!!! *cries* I may leave early due to the pain and the fatigue I am feeling. admittedly it will completely counteract the removal of points/OT I worked yesterday, but I really want to go lay down in the corner and wimper with pain. yes, it's THAT bad. I can't get it to pop either, so there is no relief to be had. my guess is this is stress. stress from work, stress I impose on myself by worrying and fretting on what I cannot help/do at this time, and living in my house. don't get me wrong, it could be much much worse and for the most part my family can be pretty OK, but I just don't have the energy anymore. if I go home, I am going to demand of myself that I go to bed and not play FFXI. if I have to somehow tie myself to the bed, so be it. I'll be going to rest, not work on levelling Tenkai. at least not until later if I am feeling better. so yesterday when I got home, I planted myself on the computer, and aside from a few hours of interruption, remained there. I managed to raise Tenkai fully from level 9 to level 11. I am kickin ass yo! in 2 or 3 days I am doing what took like a week and a half. hooray for learning how to maximise XP. even though I try to make some jumps now and then into dangerous terrirtory..... I chatted with marcus for a bit on the phone last night. that was happy. his spurts of hyperactivity and seemingly absurd optimism really help pick me up. he's in training for a phone service job of his own. lucky him, huh? at least he'll be making more money. more than me even most likely. I still wish it didn't pretty much result in us seeing a ton less of each other. it also puts the 2 of us on odd sleep schedules. for him to sleep like me, he'd have to go to bed at about 6-7 in the morning. he'll be doing better than me in that respect I'll bet too..... oh well. time to log in and read web comics until I can no longer stand the pain.