on boys, bunnies, blond skanks, and failing school...
i feel silly. oh so silly. yes. indeed. almost had a song going there.
so. i'm thinking a lot today. thinking and playing tripeaks, and i got this idea (hindsight is 20/20 after all) that perhaps when bunny mentioned olive garden (oh evil place that it is) that perhaps he wanted me to ask why he went. people do tend to say stuff like that in order to get others to ask them about themselves. interesting idea i think. in fact, i almost asked him. (i don't know why i'm mentioning this, it happened like 2 weeks ago) anyhoo. i didn't. rather i just looked at him for a while, oddly, and then said that olive garden sucks...evidently he doesn't concur. too bad. the reason i didn't ask him why? the possible answers. they could have been random type answers (something good in family, his birthday, etc) or he could've said he was out with his SO. that would have killed me.
also worth mentioning: he sat to my right instead of my left on thursday in comp. why is this worth mentioning? cos it was traumatizing. getting ready for school i'd thought "oh shit. a zit. but at least it's on the side he won't see". yeah. so instead i had to keep myself turned away from him and my hair between us. not too fun. no. and i couldn't look at him. possible reasons he sat there: just didn't like sitting up front (neutral), wanted to check me out (oh how i wish), wanted to check some other girl out (kill me now).
why do these things matter? because i've fallen into obsession.
as a result of that obsession, i have a renewed hatred for all girls who look better than me (there are many at my school). especially the stupid tan blonde girls. now, i don't mind most girls who are stupid/blonde/tan or any combination. i just really hate one. the one bunny sits next to in government. why? she's so fucking cute. and she's what guys like. dumb and cute. and i'm sure he's no exception.
what should i do to "equal" her? get a tan. bleach my hair. wear blue contacts. lose 20 pounds (working on that anyways though of course). get a partial lobotomy (she's that stupid). i can't fake dumb. i've tried. doesn't work.
oh, and mr. government teacher man...there are such things as stupid questions. and the person you keep saying that to is the one asking them.
on a fresh note. boy. he and i are officially not friends. i have written him off. however, i've come to conclude that he's probably been smokin the weed, and that's why he went all asshole on me. nice to know it wasn't my fault.
and now for the fun part...failing school. i'm not really sure that i am. rather i'm just not trying. i sleep too much, and spend the rest of my time thinking about fucking bunny. a big time waster.
so what's so bad about my school work?
worst is photo. i have about 12 pics due wednesday. not only have i not developed them, i haven't taken them. not only have i not taken them, i don't even really know how to develop them. and i've decided to teach myself. this should be an adventure.
i have to write and memorize a speech for class monday (tomorrow)
then, of course, i have about 5 assignments to make up for composition, and turn in tuesday.
i have to read 3-4? chapters of my humanities book for a quiz on tuesday.
i have to study vocab for a latin quiz monday.
and i'm sure there's something i should be doing for government too.
oh, and on a fun note: i have no idea how to flirt. reading books on human mating ritual will not help. the only thing that will help is getting some confidence. so yeah, it's hopeless.
so. i'm thinking a lot today. thinking and playing tripeaks, and i got this idea (hindsight is 20/20 after all) that perhaps when bunny mentioned olive garden (oh evil place that it is) that perhaps he wanted me to ask why he went. people do tend to say stuff like that in order to get others to ask them about themselves. interesting idea i think. in fact, i almost asked him. (i don't know why i'm mentioning this, it happened like 2 weeks ago) anyhoo. i didn't. rather i just looked at him for a while, oddly, and then said that olive garden sucks...evidently he doesn't concur. too bad. the reason i didn't ask him why? the possible answers. they could have been random type answers (something good in family, his birthday, etc) or he could've said he was out with his SO. that would have killed me.
also worth mentioning: he sat to my right instead of my left on thursday in comp. why is this worth mentioning? cos it was traumatizing. getting ready for school i'd thought "oh shit. a zit. but at least it's on the side he won't see". yeah. so instead i had to keep myself turned away from him and my hair between us. not too fun. no. and i couldn't look at him. possible reasons he sat there: just didn't like sitting up front (neutral), wanted to check me out (oh how i wish), wanted to check some other girl out (kill me now).
why do these things matter? because i've fallen into obsession.
as a result of that obsession, i have a renewed hatred for all girls who look better than me (there are many at my school). especially the stupid tan blonde girls. now, i don't mind most girls who are stupid/blonde/tan or any combination. i just really hate one. the one bunny sits next to in government. why? she's so fucking cute. and she's what guys like. dumb and cute. and i'm sure he's no exception.
what should i do to "equal" her? get a tan. bleach my hair. wear blue contacts. lose 20 pounds (working on that anyways though of course). get a partial lobotomy (she's that stupid). i can't fake dumb. i've tried. doesn't work.
oh, and mr. government teacher man...there are such things as stupid questions. and the person you keep saying that to is the one asking them.
on a fresh note. boy. he and i are officially not friends. i have written him off. however, i've come to conclude that he's probably been smokin the weed, and that's why he went all asshole on me. nice to know it wasn't my fault.
and now for the fun part...failing school. i'm not really sure that i am. rather i'm just not trying. i sleep too much, and spend the rest of my time thinking about fucking bunny. a big time waster.
so what's so bad about my school work?
worst is photo. i have about 12 pics due wednesday. not only have i not developed them, i haven't taken them. not only have i not taken them, i don't even really know how to develop them. and i've decided to teach myself. this should be an adventure.
i have to write and memorize a speech for class monday (tomorrow)
then, of course, i have about 5 assignments to make up for composition, and turn in tuesday.
i have to read 3-4? chapters of my humanities book for a quiz on tuesday.
i have to study vocab for a latin quiz monday.
and i'm sure there's something i should be doing for government too.
oh, and on a fun note: i have no idea how to flirt. reading books on human mating ritual will not help. the only thing that will help is getting some confidence. so yeah, it's hopeless.