Wow, Wow!!
I'm so excited to see that my livejournal is still active! Super, super happy!
I seriously thought that they would have de-activated it by now, but I'm very happy to discover that is not the case. ~Smile~
I think that this will help with my mental stability; I'm having lots and lots of problems and I need a place to share my feelings. That is why they created livejournal isn't it?
Well, update on my life, and all the craziness that's happened.
I am back in the States, and was desperately trying to to find a job. I've tried and tried, but I haven't found much of anything. Then, I tried to enter a program here at the county for high school teachers, but I didn't get accepted. So, now I'm back trying to find a job, without much luck, and reaching the breaking point. I've been here six months, and nothing has broken yet, absolutely nothing. Well, my mental sanity broke months ago, but that's not a good thing.
Uuganaa and I are doing not so well, which really sucks, but what to do? I'm trying, but I'm not doing a good job. Everything I do only makes things worse. It's gotten to where I wish I could stay with my mom, just to get away from him. He's mostly angry that I'm not applying for work, at the moment. It's difficult to explain why I'm not. I guess it's a combination of depression, the inability of even knowing how to apply or where to apply, and a whole lot of disappointment. Professionally, I screwed myself staying in Taiwan for so long, without getting my degree. And I knew that returning, but well, I figured I could do it, hahaha.
The only good news is after months and months of having a car that only half-worked, and then died, we might be getting something else soon. In fact, it's sitting in the front drive way, waiting for Uuganaa to take a look at it, so we can make a decision. Since he was unwilling to go and see it yesterday. I don't think he understands that James needs a decision soon.
In all honesty, now that I have been in a serious relationship, I can honestly say they are crap. However, women are trapped because they don't really have other options open to them. I think deep down, women struggle with this feeling of worth, and commited relationships are the only type that don't signifigantly diminish their worth.
Just ignore me, I'm tired. Today we cleaned out someone's garage. Took all day, and I'm tired. So I'm spouting lots of nonsense.
Well yeah lj!
I seriously thought that they would have de-activated it by now, but I'm very happy to discover that is not the case. ~Smile~
I think that this will help with my mental stability; I'm having lots and lots of problems and I need a place to share my feelings. That is why they created livejournal isn't it?
Well, update on my life, and all the craziness that's happened.
I am back in the States, and was desperately trying to to find a job. I've tried and tried, but I haven't found much of anything. Then, I tried to enter a program here at the county for high school teachers, but I didn't get accepted. So, now I'm back trying to find a job, without much luck, and reaching the breaking point. I've been here six months, and nothing has broken yet, absolutely nothing. Well, my mental sanity broke months ago, but that's not a good thing.
Uuganaa and I are doing not so well, which really sucks, but what to do? I'm trying, but I'm not doing a good job. Everything I do only makes things worse. It's gotten to where I wish I could stay with my mom, just to get away from him. He's mostly angry that I'm not applying for work, at the moment. It's difficult to explain why I'm not. I guess it's a combination of depression, the inability of even knowing how to apply or where to apply, and a whole lot of disappointment. Professionally, I screwed myself staying in Taiwan for so long, without getting my degree. And I knew that returning, but well, I figured I could do it, hahaha.
The only good news is after months and months of having a car that only half-worked, and then died, we might be getting something else soon. In fact, it's sitting in the front drive way, waiting for Uuganaa to take a look at it, so we can make a decision. Since he was unwilling to go and see it yesterday. I don't think he understands that James needs a decision soon.
In all honesty, now that I have been in a serious relationship, I can honestly say they are crap. However, women are trapped because they don't really have other options open to them. I think deep down, women struggle with this feeling of worth, and commited relationships are the only type that don't signifigantly diminish their worth.
Just ignore me, I'm tired. Today we cleaned out someone's garage. Took all day, and I'm tired. So I'm spouting lots of nonsense.
Well yeah lj!