Apr 16, 2008 17:24
Wow, it's amazing how quickly everything falls into place. Pete and I did patch things up, after several very very late nights and lots of crying and yelling. I think we're now stronger than ever, as he reassures me about my fears and doubts and reaffirms my trust in him. Now all I have to do is trust myself. Maybe because of all that stress, I'm so sick right now. It's the same ol same ol: hacking up a lung, sinus headaches to end all, fatigue, sore throat that makes me sound like a 50-yr-old smoker, et al.
What else is new? I got a great internship opportunity in NYC labor organizing for UNITEHERE.
What else is new? I also got a huge chunk of money to go back to Chile this summer to research my thesis subject.
So unfortunately I can't take the internship because of the time constraints, which sucks. But I am going back to Santiago which I'm ecstatic about. I cried when I got the email telling me I had been awarded the grant money. It felt so purely happy, even while I was hacking up a lung. Even better, because I got so much money and plan on being there for about a month, Pete is going to come with me which is more than anything I ever could've asked for. I can't wait to show him the city the real way, and have our own place and our own freedoms. Postponing his visit from last October when I was there before was a great thing after all, because it would've ruined our relationship and of course now we have this fabulous opportunity to do the trip the way we wanted it to be.
Again though, this makes it all so real. I'm picking flights to go home around the schedule of Pete's graduation. After that date, everything is going to change.