Oct 03, 2005 09:28
So once again in my life everything is my fault. What the fuck did I ever do to anyone? I finaly find out who I am and all that and all the sudden I'm not allowed to remain happy. I broke up with Katy because she lied to me about everything in our relationship, friends I used to have fucking hate me now...I keep hearing how I've changed but all I'm doing is growing up..I'm getting older and I'm tired of acting like I'm 12...I mean I already look the damn part. But anyway..my life is one big blur and not to mention a miserable mess.I'd give anything just to be happy still. Now that she's gone I aint got a damn thing. I shouldve kept my friends close when I was with her, I let myself grow apart from everyone..I would still have her if I didnt get jealous over EVERYTHING though. I wish I didn't....
No matter how hard I try, I can't get over you and I don't know why.
But I still love you so.
I need a damn job....
Thing is I wanna work at Hollister, or Abercrombie Kids...and I fucking can't cause I'm not 17...
I'm 16 and the only places I can work are places that I can't stand..Like food places..I can't stand being around food because I'll get sick. I want a job where I feel good..And I think I'd feel good working in a clothing store like Hollister, or Abercrombie kids. The people who work there are hot. What can I say? I just wanna be one of em.
Anyway...Back to my boring nothingness.