Call me a safe bet...I'm betting I'm not.........

[fightfire]

I have recently come to the conclusion that I am in love with self loathing.

The more twisted threats and angry verbal beatings I partake of, the better. I virtually 'get off' on getting

myself down, so to speak. Because there is beauty in verbal abuse. It takes some eloquence and attention to detail

to really hit

Comments

[twiststabdie]

thanks, i was trying to listen to coldplay -yellow , then i read your damn headline, and i get brandnew stuck in my head...yeah, thanks

what are you doing this weekend?

[not_now_damnit]

I could try telling you how i feel about this entry, but i get the distinct impresson from the hollowness of your words that it would be a fruitless and impossible arguement.

I am sorry you feel the way you do.

I love you.
~Sp

[fightfire]

And I am sorry that
you take me too seriously
and not seriously enough.
Sean, Hunny,
this was not outright masochism, it was a depressed
girl talking about the fact that
she has little or no self esteem.
It would be a fruitless argument because there is nothing worth arguing over.
I will not argue with you, not over this, when I seem to always be picking fights over things so mundane and trivial.
I love you too, and I hope you do not think I wrote this in a sarcastic tone, because it has been written in the most affectionate and impassioned tone I could adopt. Why, you may ask?
Merely because it is you.
You are Sean and the love of my 16 years and nothing is going to change that simple fact.
Love,
Em