AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
I wish I had just never gotten out of bed today... really.
Maybe I'll just move to fucking Mexico so I dont have to be a thorn in anybody's side.
Maybe I'll just commit myself into a mental institution so at least someone can get paid to deal with my psychosis.
Maybe I shouldn't have tsopped taken my medication, because while i felt good the first few days all I can do is cry every day now and I've managed to alienate my mother and my best friend in one day, hooray for me.
Or maybe I need to find a new medication, one that can just turn me into an emotionless Zombie, I think mayhaps that could be a good idea, because obviously I just shouldn't feel. Or maybe I should just bottle everything up for another year until I'm so full of anger hurt and resentment that I explode again
So many possibilities...
I think I may be deleting my Myspace and LJ accounts. Hell I should just hand my computer to someone else. Because god knows I can do no good anymore.
Or maybe I should just activate my WOW again so I can forget everyone exists again. Hell I was happy, even though apparently others weren't. I remember these words "Godamnit Jenn turn it off and pay attention to me!!" Yeah.... Good idea there i think.. i miss my night elf.. and the killy stabbing magic. I'm a happier personw hen I don't have to deal with reality, the reality being I'm a worthless fatass with no education, no real hope in ever finding a signifigant other and no hope of ever getting anywhere with my life because I'm never going to get a better education ( And yes Brett, I got your post and really, while I appreciate your thoughts on the subject of my life i really don't share them)
Just take me to the nuthouse, set me up in front of a lifetime of wow and just leave me be. Because If I'm such a nuisance then its better if I just don't even bother anymore.
Maybe I'll just move to fucking Mexico so I dont have to be a thorn in anybody's side.
Maybe I'll just commit myself into a mental institution so at least someone can get paid to deal with my psychosis.
Maybe I shouldn't have tsopped taken my medication, because while i felt good the first few days all I can do is cry every day now and I've managed to alienate my mother and my best friend in one day, hooray for me.
Or maybe I need to find a new medication, one that can just turn me into an emotionless Zombie, I think mayhaps that could be a good idea, because obviously I just shouldn't feel. Or maybe I should just bottle everything up for another year until I'm so full of anger hurt and resentment that I explode again
So many possibilities...
I think I may be deleting my Myspace and LJ accounts. Hell I should just hand my computer to someone else. Because god knows I can do no good anymore.
Or maybe I should just activate my WOW again so I can forget everyone exists again. Hell I was happy, even though apparently others weren't. I remember these words "Godamnit Jenn turn it off and pay attention to me!!" Yeah.... Good idea there i think.. i miss my night elf.. and the killy stabbing magic. I'm a happier personw hen I don't have to deal with reality, the reality being I'm a worthless fatass with no education, no real hope in ever finding a signifigant other and no hope of ever getting anywhere with my life because I'm never going to get a better education ( And yes Brett, I got your post and really, while I appreciate your thoughts on the subject of my life i really don't share them)
Just take me to the nuthouse, set me up in front of a lifetime of wow and just leave me be. Because If I'm such a nuisance then its better if I just don't even bother anymore.