Comments | fiery_inception: "Madness is the emergency exit." -- Alan Moore

m4moony in fiery_inception

"Madness is the emergency exit." -- Alan Moore

Jul 16, 2006 18:31

Date: Sunday, 16 July, 2000
Time: After Moonrise and sunset
Location: Spinner's End
Character(s) Involved: Remus Lupin and any other residents of Spinner's End who wish
Status: Complete
Rating: Let's say PG-13 to start and see where it goes

( Running only works when the person you're running from isn't the same one looking at you in the mirror the next day )

status: complete, character: juneau connors, character: perry derrick, character: severus snape, character: remus lupin, location: spinners end, group: werewolves, event: full moon

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subtle_simmer July 17 2006, 04:16:56 UTC

Lupin was not the only one nervous about this transformation. Severus had avoided any but the most aloof and painstakingly polite interaction through out the rest of the week. Their confrontation had left him feeling almost as wounded and unsettled as Lupin. If Lupin despised himself so much for actions beyond his own control - actions, furthermore, of which he had no tangible proof - how much more must he loathe Severus for willfully, tortuously completing the act?

He had meant what he had said, though. He was not going to let Bellatrix Lestrange or Fenrir Greyback or any other outside force control the actions of himself or anyone under his protection, ever again ( ... )

sightlesswolf July 17 2006, 04:50:35 UTC

Even before today, June had been unpleasantly sure that this full was going to be a bad one for the pack. She'd been more than usually agitated already, trying to settle with Zak in the garden as usual but unable to sit still to save her life. She'd ended up pacing about, frequently going back inside to wander the house like a displaced ghost, diverting upstairs to pass near Remus's room. Of course he'd have sensed her nearby, but she never went in; she didn't want to disturb him, just to reassure herself. Just to be near.

During one such attempt to distract herself, she'd picked up her journal and begun randomly tapping entries. And that was when her wand tip had happened on the one left by Bellatrix Lestrange.

On a good day, she would not have reacted well to that. Today it put the match to the gunpowder. There were stinging red lines on her arms where she'd dug her nails in, trying to contain the fury that had demanded she go out and find Lestrange right now and tear her apart - or lacking that, find something else to ( ... )

m4moony July 17 2006, 17:46:15 UTC

If he thought he was going to be able to deal with this quietly and on his own, it seemed he was being thwarted by his pack -- which still included Severus in Remus' mind, although he was nearly positive the other man had no wish to be included ( ... )

subtle_simmer July 17 2006, 18:30:30 UTC

Severus also turned to regard Glamis with an approving smirk. Severus had rarely seen the wizened wolf outside his own room during transformations, but clearly Severus was not alone in being quite determined that Lupin would not be alone this night.

He was also acutely aware that he would be Lupin's last choice of 'companions' for the night, which, perversely, made Severus all the more certain that he was the best choice for the job.

If he, Severus, could stay in the same room with the beast who had nearly killed him, then surely that had to send some sort of message of 'acceptance', didn't it? And wasn't that the key? Lupin, from what Severus could tell, had always separated himself from his wolf-form, in his mind, as much as possible. Even going so far as to give the beast a different name, as though to pretend it was separate and apart from himself.

If Lupin could not accept 'the beast' as part of himself, then recovery from Bellatrix' cruel revelation was going to be much more difficult ( ... )

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subtle_simmer July 19 2006, 22:45:23 UTC

It had been a gamble. Well, not really. He was relatively certain Lupin wouldn't bite him. Yet it was impossible not to see the lustful rage of the wolf gazing at him hungrily through those amber eyes.

He heard the whine, and still didn't move - couldn't have moved if he wanted to. Besides being utterly without mercy, it had taken all his courage to get where he was. Backing off was out of the question.

Then the wolf lunged, and Severus knew he was about to die. He raised his arm up defensively in front of his face, and fell backward, banging his head against the stone wall behind him in his haste to retreat. It was only as he saw the flash of tufted tail racing toward the stairs that he realised he'd not been attacked.

The sudden heart-stopping rush of adrenaline fell again just as quickly as it had risen, leaving him to feel clammy and weak-kneed - but Lupin was not going to get away that easily! His behaviour merely solidified, in Severus' perspective, that facing the beast was precisely what Lupin needed. If he was ( ... )

subtle_simmer July 19 2006, 22:46:20 UTC

He sat down on the chaise, leaning forward with his elbows on his knees, once again almost eye-level with the werewolf. Now that fear was gone, he was struck again with the genuine awe of the magnificence of the wolf - he was unquestionably a beautiful creature. The tips of his fingers were almost close enough to touch the luxurious fur.

He didn't know how to get through to Lupin, and he was in no way deceived that it would be an easy or an instantaneous healing. Lupin had tried to hide himself from himself for too long. Not that Severus could blame him - if he could have separated the Death Eater part of himself away, it might have made portions of his life easier!

Then again, it had to be worth something, somewhere in that thick lycanthrope skull, that Severus had no difficulty accepting the wolf as part and parcel of the man. Of all of his housemates. He'd seen enough monstrous behaviour from 'normal humans' to be unable to cling to wizarding prejudice against lycanthropes, just because of lycanthropy.

"You don't have to ( ... )

m4moony July 20 2006, 02:04:35 UTC

Remus snarled with barely restrained frustration whenn Severus barged into the room. Couldn't the man just leave him in peace? How was Remus supposed t come to terms with the fact that on this night he was once again the monster which had destroyed his friend's life if he wasn't given a moment's solitude to simply think?

It had been so much easier with James and Sirius and Peter. There was something about the animal mind of the animagus that acted as a sort of bridge for communication between Moony and Padfoot and Prongs and Wormtail. That bridge didn't exist here. Otherwise he'd be able to explain to the towering man chasing after him that he was trying to face it. It wasn't the wolf he was running from ( ... )

subtle_simmer July 20 2006, 03:09:02 UTC

It was impossible for Severus to 'understand', regardless of the similarities of their situations, precisely because of the differences in their situations. Severus, for all the horrific things he had done in his life, could clearly and vividly recall each and every one of them, and had done it all of his own free will.

Not something he was proud of, exactly, but control was vital to him, and even while he railed against the manipulations of the two more powerful wizards who used him as their pawn between them, he did have a choice, of sorts. He could have chosen to remain loyal to the Dark Lord. He could have chosen to make his leaving obvious, as Regulus and Igor had done, and accept the consequences. He chose to switch his loyalties to Dumbledore and follow his orders (though not completely unquestioningly) after making that decision ( ... )

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