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The desire to leave Japan gets even tinier with each loud and off-key group karaoke song, with each bite of Mr. Donut maccha ring, each person who smiles at me on the street, each gorgeous humid day and each little black-and-white hopping bird I see.
In America there are loud people, arrogance, responsibility and the social drama that I am so happy to be apart from. Fun fact: in Japan, I am able to speak freely, and I feel good enough about myself to actually make eye contact when I talk with people. It has been a horrendous realization to come to that other people have made me feel so bad about myself that I can't even bring up my head to look people in the eye.
I wish so much that I could disappear into the forests of Japan forever and live the way I want to, without fear. But there is someone who is worried about me. So I guess this cannot happen.
In America there are loud people, arrogance, responsibility and the social drama that I am so happy to be apart from. Fun fact: in Japan, I am able to speak freely, and I feel good enough about myself to actually make eye contact when I talk with people. It has been a horrendous realization to come to that other people have made me feel so bad about myself that I can't even bring up my head to look people in the eye.
I wish so much that I could disappear into the forests of Japan forever and live the way I want to, without fear. But there is someone who is worried about me. So I guess this cannot happen.