Out with the old kids, in with the new ones.
The summer holidays start in two weeks at my school and today a bunch of the grade seven students turned up with signature bears. You know, the bears made out of calico that everyone signs. So I was signing away on the bears of some of my favourite children and now I feel all sad. I'm really going to miss them.
No more over-excited, long-winded stories about runescape or zelda. No more running up to me on a Monday to ask if I watched the latest Dr. Who. No more interesting conversations about mythical creatures. No more parody songs about emos. No more decapitated Big Birds. And this is all just one child. To think about what I'll lose with the rest of them included is just painful.
I've been doing childcare since I was a child. I'm used to letting go. I know I'll be fine once they leave and I can focus on the other kids. But leading up to them going - I'm all sad! I like these kids. I just hope I don't cry. They'll lose all respect for me if I cry. Fan fics make me cry and tv ads make me cry. It's going to be so hard to stop the tears when I lose kids that I've been hanging out with for two years.
Also - D (the boy in the second paragraph) noticed my feet today. Now I know I have nifty feet and children have marveled over them many a time throughout my life. But D seems to think they are the niftyest things in the world. He gathered up a heap of his classmates to come over and look at my feet. This isn't all that weird but he now wants a photo of them, which is a little weird. I really don't want to let him photograph my feet. There's nothing wrong with it, it just seems odd. It's odd right?
In other news: I've been reading a lot of fics on the Quill lately - and reviewing. I never used to review but I've reviewed, like, ten in the past couple of days. I think it's because I'm happy. I've been having thoughts. Really good, interesting thoughts about something that I could do with my life that might actually make it more fun, and interesting, and financially stable. I like these thoughts. They're making me happy.
:D