My first actual post in a long time, so enjoy!
I'm getting married! haha Judson and I are having a faux wedding, when, where, the guestlist, and all those details aren't important... Ha we'll figure that all out at a later date. It should be fabulous though, strictly black tie, chicest of chic locations, and a very vip guest list
I had a bad day. I don't do well on limited sleep at school. It's no good... And I do love hearing all about my love life and where I was over the weekend from various kids who I don't even talk to. Honestly I would say I'm fed up with all the gossip concerning myself, but it's been going on for so long it's a part of life. I suppose I should be flattered that I am such an interesting girl that the entire highschool needs to know every little detail about me and what I do apart from school... No but seriously... I can't wait for college.
I crave change at the moment, I want new friends, and new potential boyfriends, and a new location would be nice too! I feel as if I've exhausted all of my options here in good 'ole Cumming. I've dated all the boys here I think I can handle, and I haven't met any promising prospects, which is most likely why I'm so satisfied being single. My highschool friends are decent, but the majority of them don't mind stabbing me in the back to tell a juicy story about me. What are you gonna do, I mean high school hierarchy is vicious... you have to kill or be killed! Right? Apparently so. I can't say I ever gave a damn about popularity, which is why I'm so blunt without any repercussions about what people might think. Because really, it's not worth it, there's always going to be somebody that doesn't like you and there's always going to be someone who will :o) So I figure I'm golden because I'm easily able to make friends, or at least it's been relatively simple for the majority of my life. So I just wish I could get outta this highschool and away from these kids who I have no doubt about not missing them.
Oh and I have some interesting news, well I find it interesting anyhow. I have met someone who I feel is just about a carbon copy of myself, except that this person is male... Yes a male version of myself. Flirtatious, emotionally unavailable, irresponsible, a favorite of the opposite sex, I could go on an on. Ha it makes me laugh so hard, cause I just figured it out the other day. Weird, huh?
I love fourth period, Parker is my favorite of all... haha he laughs at freaking everything I say, he's so cute! If I ever did pursue this stand up thing that everyone thinks I'd be so good at, I'd want my audience to be filled with Parkers! We always have so much fun together, and his reactions to the things I say are hilarious, we really do compliment each other perfectly! I didn't do any of my work today in there because we had a sub... which is bad because I'm tired as anything and I have so much work to do because I have mastered procrastination if nothing else throughout my high school career.
Umm I am strange, and my timing is way off, but I think the reason I don't wanna date anyone or start anything up is because I actually want to find someone I genuinely like. As in outside of physical attraction, and attempt a relationship with them. And I haven't found anyone like that around here, and I'm thinking college is going to mark the beginning of the end of my seemingly neverending fear of commitment. I feel like such a 'guy' to admit that I can't do relationships, but I just can't seem to. Eh it's for the best, I know what I want right now, and it isn't some serious boyfriend before I head off to college, so I guess I'll just keep doing what I've been doing--- and I'll be just fine ;o)
Anywho... I am massively in love with Elliott Smith as always, and XO is currently my favorite Elliott Album so I'll leave you with my current fav. song :oD
Elliott Smith- Baby Britan
baby britain feels the best floating over a sea of vodka
separated from the rest
fights problems with bigger problems
sees the ocean fall and rise
counts the waves that somehow didn't hit her
water pouring from her eyes
alcoholic and very bitter
for someone half as smart you'd be a work of art
you put yourself apart
and I can't help until you start
we knocked another couple back
the dead soldiers lined up on the table
still prepared for an attack
they didn't know they'd been disabled
felt a wave a rush of blood
you won't be happy 'til the bottle's broken
and you're out swimming in the flood
you kept back you kept unspoken
for someone half as smart you'd be a work of art
you put yourself apart
and I can't help until you start
you got a look in your eye
when you're saying goodbye
like you wanna say hi
the light was on but it was dim
revolver's been turned over
and now it's ready once again
the radio was playing "crimson and clover"
london bridge is safe and sound
no matter what you keep repeating
nothing's gonna drag me down
to a death that's not worth cheating
for someone half as smart you'd be a work of art
you put yourself apart
and I can't help until you start
for someone half as smart you'd be a work of art
you put yourself apart
I had a bad day. I don't do well on limited sleep at school. It's no good... And I do love hearing all about my love life and where I was over the weekend from various kids who I don't even talk to. Honestly I would say I'm fed up with all the gossip concerning myself, but it's been going on for so long it's a part of life. I suppose I should be flattered that I am such an interesting girl that the entire highschool needs to know every little detail about me and what I do apart from school... No but seriously... I can't wait for college.
I crave change at the moment, I want new friends, and new potential boyfriends, and a new location would be nice too! I feel as if I've exhausted all of my options here in good 'ole Cumming. I've dated all the boys here I think I can handle, and I haven't met any promising prospects, which is most likely why I'm so satisfied being single. My highschool friends are decent, but the majority of them don't mind stabbing me in the back to tell a juicy story about me. What are you gonna do, I mean high school hierarchy is vicious... you have to kill or be killed! Right? Apparently so. I can't say I ever gave a damn about popularity, which is why I'm so blunt without any repercussions about what people might think. Because really, it's not worth it, there's always going to be somebody that doesn't like you and there's always going to be someone who will :o) So I figure I'm golden because I'm easily able to make friends, or at least it's been relatively simple for the majority of my life. So I just wish I could get outta this highschool and away from these kids who I have no doubt about not missing them.
Oh and I have some interesting news, well I find it interesting anyhow. I have met someone who I feel is just about a carbon copy of myself, except that this person is male... Yes a male version of myself. Flirtatious, emotionally unavailable, irresponsible, a favorite of the opposite sex, I could go on an on. Ha it makes me laugh so hard, cause I just figured it out the other day. Weird, huh?
I love fourth period, Parker is my favorite of all... haha he laughs at freaking everything I say, he's so cute! If I ever did pursue this stand up thing that everyone thinks I'd be so good at, I'd want my audience to be filled with Parkers! We always have so much fun together, and his reactions to the things I say are hilarious, we really do compliment each other perfectly! I didn't do any of my work today in there because we had a sub... which is bad because I'm tired as anything and I have so much work to do because I have mastered procrastination if nothing else throughout my high school career.
Umm I am strange, and my timing is way off, but I think the reason I don't wanna date anyone or start anything up is because I actually want to find someone I genuinely like. As in outside of physical attraction, and attempt a relationship with them. And I haven't found anyone like that around here, and I'm thinking college is going to mark the beginning of the end of my seemingly neverending fear of commitment. I feel like such a 'guy' to admit that I can't do relationships, but I just can't seem to. Eh it's for the best, I know what I want right now, and it isn't some serious boyfriend before I head off to college, so I guess I'll just keep doing what I've been doing--- and I'll be just fine ;o)
Anywho... I am massively in love with Elliott Smith as always, and XO is currently my favorite Elliott Album so I'll leave you with my current fav. song :oD
Elliott Smith- Baby Britan
baby britain feels the best floating over a sea of vodka
separated from the rest
fights problems with bigger problems
sees the ocean fall and rise
counts the waves that somehow didn't hit her
water pouring from her eyes
alcoholic and very bitter
for someone half as smart you'd be a work of art
you put yourself apart
and I can't help until you start
we knocked another couple back
the dead soldiers lined up on the table
still prepared for an attack
they didn't know they'd been disabled
felt a wave a rush of blood
you won't be happy 'til the bottle's broken
and you're out swimming in the flood
you kept back you kept unspoken
for someone half as smart you'd be a work of art
you put yourself apart
and I can't help until you start
you got a look in your eye
when you're saying goodbye
like you wanna say hi
the light was on but it was dim
revolver's been turned over
and now it's ready once again
the radio was playing "crimson and clover"
london bridge is safe and sound
no matter what you keep repeating
nothing's gonna drag me down
to a death that's not worth cheating
for someone half as smart you'd be a work of art
you put yourself apart
and I can't help until you start
for someone half as smart you'd be a work of art
you put yourself apart