Here's something for the viewers pleasure, I am aware I have flaws.
I hear a new rumor about myself pretty much everyday so here you go, hope this makes everyone happy since a good majority of you like to talk shit like its your job, I figured I'd beat you to the punch this time, because I am sick of hearing utter and complete bullshit, so heres the truth.
I do care what people think of me, I know I can act/dress slutty but I hate that that causes people to spread bullshit about how I lead my life, I can be insecure at times, I don't love my body, I've lied, I've tried things I don't think are admirable, I regret things, I'm critical/judgemental, what my parents think about me does affect me, I'm very fickle (as the name implies), I keep everything inside and rarely tell people how I'm feeling, I hate rejection, I don't know what I think about religion, I resent people who say hurtful things about me, I don't try very hard in school and I know I abuse my own potential, I have high standards for myself and the people I get involved with, I'm a procrastinator, I can be possessive of my guy friends, I blur the line between friends and more too often, I don't get over things easily, I hold grudges, I hate having enemies, I always crave change, I can be very hypocritical, sometimes I just want everyone to like me, I spend money frivolously and thus don't have any very often, I don't like it when people don't see things the way I do and I can't convince them to, I hate being alone, I love attention, I fall for assholes (all the time...), I settle for less than I should, I worry about never being good enough, I think I have amazing taste in music and that most people don't, I don't like people with superiority complexes(about things other than music ha), I can be very shallow and I don't think its a bad thing, I love confrontation and am not shy about confronting people, I have had failed relationships and I've lead boys on, I can't stand fake people who don't have the nerve to say what they think of you to your face, I gossip, I worry constantly, I'm overly analytical of myself and I don't thik very highly of myself at times, I want to fall in love but I'm terrified I'll love someone who won't love me back, I pride myself on my ability to attract guys, I get depressed, sometimes I just want to be quiet and be left alone, I complain about a lot of things, I'm agressive, I give up; on school, on people, on myself... I dramatize situations, I'm not good at accepting compliments, I think I'm smart, I consider myself to be pretty, I love the rain, I lie to myself about people and boys that I know are bad for me, I get myself into negative and self destructive situations, I let myself believe the lies people feed me, I've hurt people- both intentionally and unintentionally, I don't think out what the outcome of my actions will be, I don't think anyone truly cares about me, I'm afraid of opening up to people, I sabotage my happiness, I'm very loud, I hate feeling ignorant, I don't like people who cannot teach me something- whether it be something about myself or something about the world etc, I can be very self involved at times, I generally don't like girls and tend to not form female friendships, I know I intimidate people and I don't intend on changing, I wish I could go back and change so much about my life, I miss my ex boyfriends, I know I'm not always the most considerate friend and I hate that, I let myself down on a regular basis in one way or another, I contemplate what could have been had I taken some initiative concerning people/ school/ lifestyle changes, I rarely reach the relationship stage with boys because I'm terrified of getting hurt, and I'm 'needy'- I need people and to be reminded that people enjoy my company and if I do have a boyfriend, I want him to appreciate me and make me feel loved.
* End Rant *
And for the record, I'm not making this entry to explain myself to people or to gain peoples approval, I know that I am not liked by some people and I am not trying to use this revelation as a means to rectify poor friendships/relationships. I don't encourage negative feedback, if you want to post something cruel about me, don't post a comment at all.
I do care what people think of me, I know I can act/dress slutty but I hate that that causes people to spread bullshit about how I lead my life, I can be insecure at times, I don't love my body, I've lied, I've tried things I don't think are admirable, I regret things, I'm critical/judgemental, what my parents think about me does affect me, I'm very fickle (as the name implies), I keep everything inside and rarely tell people how I'm feeling, I hate rejection, I don't know what I think about religion, I resent people who say hurtful things about me, I don't try very hard in school and I know I abuse my own potential, I have high standards for myself and the people I get involved with, I'm a procrastinator, I can be possessive of my guy friends, I blur the line between friends and more too often, I don't get over things easily, I hold grudges, I hate having enemies, I always crave change, I can be very hypocritical, sometimes I just want everyone to like me, I spend money frivolously and thus don't have any very often, I don't like it when people don't see things the way I do and I can't convince them to, I hate being alone, I love attention, I fall for assholes (all the time...), I settle for less than I should, I worry about never being good enough, I think I have amazing taste in music and that most people don't, I don't like people with superiority complexes(about things other than music ha), I can be very shallow and I don't think its a bad thing, I love confrontation and am not shy about confronting people, I have had failed relationships and I've lead boys on, I can't stand fake people who don't have the nerve to say what they think of you to your face, I gossip, I worry constantly, I'm overly analytical of myself and I don't thik very highly of myself at times, I want to fall in love but I'm terrified I'll love someone who won't love me back, I pride myself on my ability to attract guys, I get depressed, sometimes I just want to be quiet and be left alone, I complain about a lot of things, I'm agressive, I give up; on school, on people, on myself... I dramatize situations, I'm not good at accepting compliments, I think I'm smart, I consider myself to be pretty, I love the rain, I lie to myself about people and boys that I know are bad for me, I get myself into negative and self destructive situations, I let myself believe the lies people feed me, I've hurt people- both intentionally and unintentionally, I don't think out what the outcome of my actions will be, I don't think anyone truly cares about me, I'm afraid of opening up to people, I sabotage my happiness, I'm very loud, I hate feeling ignorant, I don't like people who cannot teach me something- whether it be something about myself or something about the world etc, I can be very self involved at times, I generally don't like girls and tend to not form female friendships, I know I intimidate people and I don't intend on changing, I wish I could go back and change so much about my life, I miss my ex boyfriends, I know I'm not always the most considerate friend and I hate that, I let myself down on a regular basis in one way or another, I contemplate what could have been had I taken some initiative concerning people/ school/ lifestyle changes, I rarely reach the relationship stage with boys because I'm terrified of getting hurt, and I'm 'needy'- I need people and to be reminded that people enjoy my company and if I do have a boyfriend, I want him to appreciate me and make me feel loved.
* End Rant *
And for the record, I'm not making this entry to explain myself to people or to gain peoples approval, I know that I am not liked by some people and I am not trying to use this revelation as a means to rectify poor friendships/relationships. I don't encourage negative feedback, if you want to post something cruel about me, don't post a comment at all.