Dir en grey / Kaoru x Toshiya / Mr. Newsman
Title: Mr. Newsman
Author: bl4ckm4lice
Fandom: Dir en grey
Claim: Kaoru Niikura x Toshimasa Hara
Prompt: Dir en grey - Mr. Newsman
Word Count: 567
Rating: FRT
Warnings: None
Disclaimer: na-ah, not mine
Author's Notes: Beta-ed by yohaly @ aarin forum. Made for fic_cd_mix
Link to table: here
Darkness greets us in the apartment. I flick the light on and bring him inside with one hand. The door closed with a soft click.
His shoulders are trembling, and I know it isn’t only for the cold winter.
“Hey,” Trying to be as gentle as I can, I place both palms on the sides of his face. His eyes are anxious, scared and trying to avoid mine. “Toshiya, hey.”
Slowly, the brown orbs shift in my direction, but they quickly turn again. I sigh and guide him to the living room. It’s dark, so I carefully find my way to the couch and sat him there. I rise again to turn the light on, but suddenly his hand grips the end of my sleeve.
“Toshiya?”
“Don’t go.”
Those two words mean a lot more than what they sound. “I just want to turn the light on.”
“Don’t go.”
It crushes me to see him like this. Gone the confident Toshiya, enter the frightened, insecure one. I sit back down and bring him into my arms. Toshiya snuggles even closer but doesn’t dare to wrap his arms around me.
Because he’s scared.
He’s scared that what had been his worry will come true now. He said it as a joke some time ago, but I knew he was serious. I knew he really thinks that I’ll leave him if the media ever found out about our relationship.
We were just outside, having the time of our life. Holding hands and hope that no one cares. After all, it was the busy time of the year and people can barely recognize us among the crowd. He was this little bundle of happiness and just a little bit drunk. Toshiya dragged me to the side and kissed me with giggles.
Then a blinding flash was directed at us.
Whoever it was who hold the camera had this sick grin plastered on his face before he disappeared into the crowd.
I was shocked and angry… and quickly realize how badly Toshiya was trembling.
He was so sure I was going to be mad at him. But of course I’m not.
Why can’t we enjoy this little happiness like other couples? Why must we hide? Why does Toshiya think I will choose the band and abandon him?
I’m not that low. I’m not that loveless.
I am a bit disappointed at how little Toshiya trust me, but I can understand that he’s beyond terrified. And after all, putting the band before him is one of my biggest façades. Can’t let the rest of the band think that I’m favoring my lover, or they will whine more. Too much whining already.
’I won’t leave you. Hey, you know what? We should let them know about us anyway.’
But if I say that now, he’d probably think that I’m not serious. That I’m just saying it to calm him down. So I have to wait until he calms down first. I stroke his hair, feeling a bit amused that even his shaved side of the head feels smooth. He’s just like a little child even in his thirties.
He will fall asleep soon, I can tell from the lessening tenseness. I will fall asleep too while keeping him safe like this. Then in the morning we can talk and I will assure him I’m not going anywhere.
No matter what news await us.
***
The end~
Author: bl4ckm4lice
Fandom: Dir en grey
Claim: Kaoru Niikura x Toshimasa Hara
Prompt: Dir en grey - Mr. Newsman
Word Count: 567
Rating: FRT
Warnings: None
Disclaimer: na-ah, not mine
Author's Notes: Beta-ed by yohaly @ aarin forum. Made for fic_cd_mix
Link to table: here
Darkness greets us in the apartment. I flick the light on and bring him inside with one hand. The door closed with a soft click.
His shoulders are trembling, and I know it isn’t only for the cold winter.
“Hey,” Trying to be as gentle as I can, I place both palms on the sides of his face. His eyes are anxious, scared and trying to avoid mine. “Toshiya, hey.”
Slowly, the brown orbs shift in my direction, but they quickly turn again. I sigh and guide him to the living room. It’s dark, so I carefully find my way to the couch and sat him there. I rise again to turn the light on, but suddenly his hand grips the end of my sleeve.
“Toshiya?”
“Don’t go.”
Those two words mean a lot more than what they sound. “I just want to turn the light on.”
“Don’t go.”
It crushes me to see him like this. Gone the confident Toshiya, enter the frightened, insecure one. I sit back down and bring him into my arms. Toshiya snuggles even closer but doesn’t dare to wrap his arms around me.
Because he’s scared.
He’s scared that what had been his worry will come true now. He said it as a joke some time ago, but I knew he was serious. I knew he really thinks that I’ll leave him if the media ever found out about our relationship.
We were just outside, having the time of our life. Holding hands and hope that no one cares. After all, it was the busy time of the year and people can barely recognize us among the crowd. He was this little bundle of happiness and just a little bit drunk. Toshiya dragged me to the side and kissed me with giggles.
Then a blinding flash was directed at us.
Whoever it was who hold the camera had this sick grin plastered on his face before he disappeared into the crowd.
I was shocked and angry… and quickly realize how badly Toshiya was trembling.
He was so sure I was going to be mad at him. But of course I’m not.
Why can’t we enjoy this little happiness like other couples? Why must we hide? Why does Toshiya think I will choose the band and abandon him?
I’m not that low. I’m not that loveless.
I am a bit disappointed at how little Toshiya trust me, but I can understand that he’s beyond terrified. And after all, putting the band before him is one of my biggest façades. Can’t let the rest of the band think that I’m favoring my lover, or they will whine more. Too much whining already.
’I won’t leave you. Hey, you know what? We should let them know about us anyway.’
But if I say that now, he’d probably think that I’m not serious. That I’m just saying it to calm him down. So I have to wait until he calms down first. I stroke his hair, feeling a bit amused that even his shaved side of the head feels smooth. He’s just like a little child even in his thirties.
He will fall asleep soon, I can tell from the lessening tenseness. I will fall asleep too while keeping him safe like this. Then in the morning we can talk and I will assure him I’m not going anywhere.
No matter what news await us.
***
The end~