Day Two: Still hurts like hell.
Have come to quite a few realizations that I didn't want to face.
It may be a "break" but it speaks to something more. It's foreshadowing. It starts with the easy let-down. The reassurance of my worth and value, but a careful avoidance of the issues of want and desire.
"I don't know."
So kind, so honest, so loving, and so beautiful.
I know what I want - what I've wanted since the day I met her. Through all of the ups and downs, all of the fights and make-ups. All of the tears of pain followed by tears of gladness. Perhaps I wanted her too much for it to be healthy.
I wonder what she'll say when we talk next. I know what I expect, but no matter how much I try to face reality, I can't stop myself from hoping - despite what I know what will likely happen.
And that makes me indescribably sad.
It may be a "break" but it speaks to something more. It's foreshadowing. It starts with the easy let-down. The reassurance of my worth and value, but a careful avoidance of the issues of want and desire.
"I don't know."
So kind, so honest, so loving, and so beautiful.
I know what I want - what I've wanted since the day I met her. Through all of the ups and downs, all of the fights and make-ups. All of the tears of pain followed by tears of gladness. Perhaps I wanted her too much for it to be healthy.
I wonder what she'll say when we talk next. I know what I expect, but no matter how much I try to face reality, I can't stop myself from hoping - despite what I know what will likely happen.
And that makes me indescribably sad.