itsallinthepunctuation
I'm going to take a nap I will be up all night I'm in a bad mood at work I want to watch a funny movie I'm a sucker for a good love story I am a sucker for a bad love story I am a sucker and I want to be licked I have been licked by love but that is more the beatdown kind of lick love is a lollipop and I am licking it to get to the chewy soft center but I keep biting it and gnashing it in my mouth and ruining it for everyone even though it still tastes good but lasts half as long I watch something with lots of violence teaches me how to love and take a bite when a lick you long time will work sex and violence I killed a bear by shooting it in the face with a double-barreled shotgun it wanted my food then it wanted me instead of my food I had no choice it was beautiful but I didn't want to die and more to the point I didn't want to be eaten which means being consumed by some other lifeform while you are still alive and possibly conscious sometimes the animal kingdom is worse than the mafia a few minutes later I fell from the trees in an extremely filmic Ansel Adams black and white hitting branches on the way down, slowing my fall and somehow not breaking or even hurting my back and when I reached the ground a tiger approached me I thought he was going to eat me like the bear did, he brushed by me and I was frightened and took a knife and cut its achilles' tendon or what passes for that in animals but it was a mistake the tiger did not want me dead or even harmed it just wanted to comfort me for having fallen out of a tree the bear had me spooked and caused me to react out of fear and ignorance instead of fairness I had a lot of brownies today and they were all good so good that I wanted to nevermind I want to do that all the time I am a sex addict who rarely has sex I think I can probably join a support group for that or I can just keep writing about it here for your voyeuristic entertainment you are giving me a fetish for hot girls with broken limbs I'm late for that nap but nap will only bring sleep and dreams and warmth but not you why aren't you here napping with me what is wrong with you what is wrong with me this is my favorite month and I'm usually in a bad mood I cannot fit my heart in a giftwrapped package but I give it to you all year and maybe because of that it seems less like a gift and easier to miss there is nothing like a good kiss except another good kiss how long has it been since you kissed me how long has it been since I've been kissed I saw mommy kissing Santa Claus and I'm going to fucking tell Mrs. Claus because I'm tired of not crying or pouting or watching out just because Santa is coming to town he should be nicer to me because if he keeps bullying I'm telling Mrs. Clause that Santa really is a ho ho ho and won't that be a merry christmas for all goodnight Santa being the original Big Brother how the hell can he see when we're sleeping awake bad and good unless Santa is also GOD or in the employ (or control of) the government and if so why the hell would he bring us presents I know for a fact that I've been pretty bad and still got presents and some years I didn't even ask for presents and still got them and I know I wasn't that good in fact a lot of religions offer you prizes if you're good and really that's bribery and ulteriorly motivated why is being good so hard we have to be bribed into behaving that way isn't being good it's own reward I will get up and walk until I make it to the desert where you will find me dusting I will not make it 40 days or 40 nights in fact I will be dead before the 1st week is over all I ask is to make sure the vultures d'ont eat my eyes because I will need them to see the sand I am drinking to quench my thirst a guy referring to the infrequency in which he visited the store said "I come episodically" and somehow neither I nor my co-worker even cracked a smile when I know all I was thinking was geez I've never in my life cum episodically I suppose that would be in the category of mind-blowing sex as the movies portray it I wanted to laugh but I did not I'm not lauging now even on the inside on the inside there are thorns and barbs, poison and darts I will not throw them at you all I will throw at you is my arms followed by my heart which is large enough for you to hold and small enough to be a threat to everyone around it but I will never hurt you out of malice i will take care of you even as I need more care I am here for you I am there for you I am everywhere I am for you that nap is charging me late fees next time I will get it on Netflix where there are no late fees that was a terrible joke the music on my iTunes has changed I wrote that out of order there is no order I'm tired of wanting to impress you I'm tired of not impressing myself I'm tired of missing the message I'm tired of not wanting to go to sleep I'm tired of not wanting to wake up I want you to come over I want to come over to your place I want to stay here there is no one I want to see I miss you because you are never here I miss me because self-love is very chic and I am Chic Le Freak what should I do for my birthday I want to do something special and inviting I want silly things learn to control your emotions because then you can work and not be in a bad mood or at least not show it and we know it's all about the show I am going to look for the tiger and comfort her apologizing for cutting her when all she wanted was to comfort me I do not know how to read women I am not from this planet I'm just here for the water but there are so
many
distractions.
many
distractions.