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Imagine our faces were silly putty. Now, take your fingers and rub at your face repeatedly, distorting all the features until you look like something out of a Picasso painting. That's how I feel at the moment.
Why? Well, I can't help but feel like I'm being played, and despite my cynical nature, am giving the betterment of one's self the benefit of the doubt. How so? Well, I guess some rough explainations are in order.
Way back when I was taking up Alchemy, there was someone named Cyriack who also took the craft up. I had a healthy report with some of my fellow alchemists, and when I noticed him buying and jacking the price of Dragon Blood in an attempt to HQ Hawker's/Crimson, I sent him a tell asking what was up with it since these weren't just price hikes of 1-2k. Back in the day, a 100% jump was pretty massive. He got relatively hostile with me, citing I'm just jealous because I'm poor, and typical e-thuggery ensued.
I later find out he had a tantrum about not being able to make money in Alchemy, deleveled it to 60, and took Woodworking up to 100 next. Seeing he couldn't make big bucks here, he then moved onto chocobo digging. By now, RMT had nested themselves deeply within this activity and not soon after SE implemented digging fatigue. Boned, as they say, was he.
He seemingly disappears for a long while. To be honest, I wasn't keeping tabs on him. Then back in April he makes a post in Alla's craft forum asking if there's a guaranteed HQ formula of sorts. There was the typical "read the sticky" blurbs, but I also went out of my way to point out his history to these people and that helping him isn't going to do a service to anyone. Again, some silence.
Today I suddenly see a lot of posts from him. One happened to be a public apology where my name was dropped. The cynic that I am, he cited alcohol as the cause of behavior and that after being clean 50 days, he felt somehow obligated to apologize to people. I wasn't buying it, but I put my two cents in on the matter and basically tell him that if he means it, then good luck. I'm not interested in being friends.
Of course, then he PMs me. I sat it on it for a bit, wondering if I should even reply, but I did. I kind of elaborated on what I said in the post, and offered a few more tidbits of wisdom. Still, I just can't shake the feeling it's all an act and there's some guy sitting in his chair laughing his ass off at all the people that aren't even on Fairy who took his side for publicly apologizing. Meanwhile, him calling me out and me responding is just the proverbial cherry on the sundae.
Part of me hates the fact this game's perpetuated this self-defense mechanism of mine. I really, really hate being burned, and me trying to be helpful at my own expense has caused it too often.
Why? Well, I can't help but feel like I'm being played, and despite my cynical nature, am giving the betterment of one's self the benefit of the doubt. How so? Well, I guess some rough explainations are in order.
Way back when I was taking up Alchemy, there was someone named Cyriack who also took the craft up. I had a healthy report with some of my fellow alchemists, and when I noticed him buying and jacking the price of Dragon Blood in an attempt to HQ Hawker's/Crimson, I sent him a tell asking what was up with it since these weren't just price hikes of 1-2k. Back in the day, a 100% jump was pretty massive. He got relatively hostile with me, citing I'm just jealous because I'm poor, and typical e-thuggery ensued.
I later find out he had a tantrum about not being able to make money in Alchemy, deleveled it to 60, and took Woodworking up to 100 next. Seeing he couldn't make big bucks here, he then moved onto chocobo digging. By now, RMT had nested themselves deeply within this activity and not soon after SE implemented digging fatigue. Boned, as they say, was he.
He seemingly disappears for a long while. To be honest, I wasn't keeping tabs on him. Then back in April he makes a post in Alla's craft forum asking if there's a guaranteed HQ formula of sorts. There was the typical "read the sticky" blurbs, but I also went out of my way to point out his history to these people and that helping him isn't going to do a service to anyone. Again, some silence.
Today I suddenly see a lot of posts from him. One happened to be a public apology where my name was dropped. The cynic that I am, he cited alcohol as the cause of behavior and that after being clean 50 days, he felt somehow obligated to apologize to people. I wasn't buying it, but I put my two cents in on the matter and basically tell him that if he means it, then good luck. I'm not interested in being friends.
Of course, then he PMs me. I sat it on it for a bit, wondering if I should even reply, but I did. I kind of elaborated on what I said in the post, and offered a few more tidbits of wisdom. Still, I just can't shake the feeling it's all an act and there's some guy sitting in his chair laughing his ass off at all the people that aren't even on Fairy who took his side for publicly apologizing. Meanwhile, him calling me out and me responding is just the proverbial cherry on the sundae.
Part of me hates the fact this game's perpetuated this self-defense mechanism of mine. I really, really hate being burned, and me trying to be helpful at my own expense has caused it too often.