I'd say I'm doing better 'cause I'm back to fangirling
F.R.I.E.N.D.S. and random Brad Pitt just made me realize something: contentment has been sneaking in for a few days now.
So yeah, my so-called holiday started, meaning my previous contract ended and I'm spending a week unemployed before my next contract begins - by choice, no matter how unwise decision that might be. This freedom started on Friday and since then I've had time to meet people, watch all the Graig-Bonds, meet some more people and even spend hours in the world of our little group of investigators in America of 1927. I've also met two of my sisters, shopped for dad's 60th birthday and visited home two times in order to carry my stuff back and forth.
All of this has made me strangely happy.
I might've been staring at the screen so long I didn't even know what time it was anymore, but even this has mainly been about catching up with friends and enjoying the cats of the Internetz. Right now I'm listening to the playlist I once made for my girly beautiful wonderful amazing emotional hopeful Audrey Darbishire, the rich and fabulous auror-in-training with pink and fluffy mittens and positive energy to share. It makes me feel somewhat calm -
no, wait.
Calm is far away from it, since while trying to write this, this and this happened. Death Note Supernatural Avengers (again!-with Jarvis and Coulson and everyone!! <3) Harry Potter Doctor Who Naruto Star Wars and I just stopped 'cause I fear this would take me to weeks without sleep and the beat haunting me for years to come. It probably will, just for watching all of these.
Ahem. Anyway, I've been fangirling and feeling giddy and exited and yes, I should be able to behave like a real person tomorrow with three others on a ship. I love the sea, and I almost decided to go to Stockholm and back all on my own - and then decided to ask on Facebook if anyone wanted to join. We are now four, and I think this is going to be good for me. No possibilities to do anything useful, access to endless sea and the Old Town of Stockholm.
On Thursday there'll be dad and birthday and family, which is something I always miss when I've spent too much time socializing with too many friends at the same time. We have our problems and things we never talk about, but like me, family is not supposed to be perfect. We learn and move on, and if it hurts worse when we fall again, knowing we've gotten over it once makes it just the tiniest bit better. This evening has been about loving all kinds of characters, stories behind them and just plain fangirl-squeeing and giggling to certain fictional beings. I love these moments even as they make me feel just a little bit too stupid and vain - luckily I haven't believed in being just one person in a long time.
Now I must start calming down to get even some sleep this night. Wouldn't be much fun if I ended up going to sleep as soon as the ship leaves Helsinki..,
...really? Assassin's Creed, too? (Okay, I admit, I got lost in the Interwebs again. And yes, I've started using bad, bad words like Interwebs and Internetz again. I can't help it! I'm the victim here! Go blame someone else! :< )
So yeah, being a fangirl helps.
So yeah, my so-called holiday started, meaning my previous contract ended and I'm spending a week unemployed before my next contract begins - by choice, no matter how unwise decision that might be. This freedom started on Friday and since then I've had time to meet people, watch all the Graig-Bonds, meet some more people and even spend hours in the world of our little group of investigators in America of 1927. I've also met two of my sisters, shopped for dad's 60th birthday and visited home two times in order to carry my stuff back and forth.
All of this has made me strangely happy.
I might've been staring at the screen so long I didn't even know what time it was anymore, but even this has mainly been about catching up with friends and enjoying the cats of the Internetz. Right now I'm listening to the playlist I once made for my girly beautiful wonderful amazing emotional hopeful Audrey Darbishire, the rich and fabulous auror-in-training with pink and fluffy mittens and positive energy to share. It makes me feel somewhat calm -
no, wait.
Calm is far away from it, since while trying to write this, this and this happened. Death Note Supernatural Avengers (again!-with Jarvis and Coulson and everyone!! <3) Harry Potter Doctor Who Naruto Star Wars and I just stopped 'cause I fear this would take me to weeks without sleep and the beat haunting me for years to come. It probably will, just for watching all of these.
Ahem. Anyway, I've been fangirling and feeling giddy and exited and yes, I should be able to behave like a real person tomorrow with three others on a ship. I love the sea, and I almost decided to go to Stockholm and back all on my own - and then decided to ask on Facebook if anyone wanted to join. We are now four, and I think this is going to be good for me. No possibilities to do anything useful, access to endless sea and the Old Town of Stockholm.
On Thursday there'll be dad and birthday and family, which is something I always miss when I've spent too much time socializing with too many friends at the same time. We have our problems and things we never talk about, but like me, family is not supposed to be perfect. We learn and move on, and if it hurts worse when we fall again, knowing we've gotten over it once makes it just the tiniest bit better. This evening has been about loving all kinds of characters, stories behind them and just plain fangirl-squeeing and giggling to certain fictional beings. I love these moments even as they make me feel just a little bit too stupid and vain - luckily I haven't believed in being just one person in a long time.
Now I must start calming down to get even some sleep this night. Wouldn't be much fun if I ended up going to sleep as soon as the ship leaves Helsinki..,
...really? Assassin's Creed, too? (Okay, I admit, I got lost in the Interwebs again. And yes, I've started using bad, bad words like Interwebs and Internetz again. I can't help it! I'm the victim here! Go blame someone else! :< )
So yeah, being a fangirl helps.