d i s c u s t i n g
i am so horribly discusted with myself.
discusted with my life.
discusted with other people.
discusted with fucking everything.
im a terrible awful person. my will is not good. i act on impulse. im a hyprocrite. i dont make the right decisions. im obsessed with pleasing everyone who matters the least and not concerned with pleasing anyone who matters the most. i cant say no. i dont respect myself. i dont care what i put into my body as long as it "fucks me up." i swallow/snort/smoke/drink whatever i can get my hands on. i dont care about consequences. i go against my better judgement. i deny having any problems. i fake a smile. i tell everyone that im fine. i let others control me and walk all over me. my priorities are all fucked up. im am setting the worst example ever to those who look up to me, even though i should never ever be looked up to. i realize all of this but it seems i still do nothing to change it.
and it discusts me how so many other people do the same fucking shit.
discusted with my life.
discusted with other people.
discusted with fucking everything.
im a terrible awful person. my will is not good. i act on impulse. im a hyprocrite. i dont make the right decisions. im obsessed with pleasing everyone who matters the least and not concerned with pleasing anyone who matters the most. i cant say no. i dont respect myself. i dont care what i put into my body as long as it "fucks me up." i swallow/snort/smoke/drink whatever i can get my hands on. i dont care about consequences. i go against my better judgement. i deny having any problems. i fake a smile. i tell everyone that im fine. i let others control me and walk all over me. my priorities are all fucked up. im am setting the worst example ever to those who look up to me, even though i should never ever be looked up to. i realize all of this but it seems i still do nothing to change it.
and it discusts me how so many other people do the same fucking shit.